No more a girl

ANNOUCEMENT!!!

2009-12-12T21:09:00.000-08:00

Will be going off to overseas for a period of time, so you will know the reason why my blog hasn't been updated and been eating nothing but a plate of unlimited empty space and a glass of dust,haha!

See ya'll again!

;)

"It is very frustrating to have permanment phobia in my head..."

Soon Going Off

2009-12-11T05:53:00.000-08:00

My brother treated me KFC breakfast finally after 2 month plus...happy and then went exercise with the public exercising machine...making my legs jibbly crazy moving mad....

Met with Laytin to the Yew Tee CC for some "stalking" session of ours haha which in the end failed haha...

Met one of my ex-frenemy/schoolmate, Ihsan...who is now the wedding planner that caught me off guard about him because he is usually like a bad guy in my life before...but Im glad he is doing something good and benefitcial...

Had my lunch at Burger King and accompanied Laytin to buy some grocceries and her lunch...

Really envy her that she is able to endure her hunger since she hadn't got her breakfast for 2-3 hours,wow...

Ok,umm..my family and I will be travelling to Genting from next Monday till Friday to finally released me out from school work and boring Singapore daily life for once...

So yeah...GENTING,HERE WE COME!

"I Want To Love You,ARGH~!"

My Good Friend (Lover's) Birthday,Haha =)

2009-12-10T04:49:00.000-08:00

Yes, I took the initiative to ask the people who created a birthday party for one november and on december boys last Sunday from them talking bees in Facebook.

Since this was the chance to see Mark again after 2 months plus of missing him, so I told them that I wanted to join in,hehe...

They were directly exclaimed my purpose of joining with them out of sudden was mainly because of Mark,haha.

It was mainly the truth but I also have other good reasons that I should do so...

FAST FORWARD~!

Before Sunday, my family and I went to Bukit Gombak to buy my outfits mainly for the birthday party due to my outdated wardrobe,hehe.

In the end, having 3 beautiful vintage outfits from street shops and brought CASIO watch for Mark with my brother's decision...

Just a penny for thought about JJ would be very jealous cos I didnt buy present for him, personally...haha I hope that he's not angry about it...I still care,ok! haha

On Sunday at 3 in the afternoon, I was the second one to reach Marina Bay MRT Station and saw Jac.Chin with her 2 younger sisters...they are very chio cute sia...and young in teens...Im jealous of their youth ahha!

Then we got out of the control station and waited for the rest of the gang to show up...then Nurul and Weiqiang came by...teasing me about Me and Mark...

Getting irritating by that,haha!

Finally, we united our gang with JJ with his little brother,Weekeng,Masrifa and Alan Tan...

At Marina Barrage, we set up our picnic spot..some of them play kite and some of them relaxed out... I was very amazed of the space of green field and the strong wind running through my hair..I took some pictures...

I realized that they were very openly happily as I observed them that made me feel happy too. I teached Jac Chin's sisters to play kite professionally..and thank goodness it worked! ahaha but not that high up but still at least it did fly! haha

It was fun...especially we taken a few group picutres and getting compliment from *ehem* haha..I really dun feel like an outcast with them...thank goodness....

Then they told me that Mark would not be able to come due to work...in my heart...I was abit disappointed,angry and sad...but I hid it...

Haha that's when Weiqiang,JJ and Nurul started to tease to cheer me up,haha...hearing all their nonsense...that made me smiled,laughed and cleared up...thanks!

Umm..but it was a prank after I set my meal on the table with them at Marina Square food court when I saw Mark sat amongst them..I was like AHHH!!,Hii!!

I tried to act not too desperated to him,haha...

They played a prank on me ME! OMG! haha

After having our dinner, we started the birthday ceremony, they cut cake...I feed Mark,haha..JJ asked me to feed him,haha...I can't...Im sorry haha...

Then I finally gave him my present with satisfied hug from Mark...I felt quite loved by him..so rare the feeling..but it is not love...is caring love thing,yeah...

Special part when he read the letter I wrote to him..I felt so contented inside but yeah I didn't show that out because I was tired and shy to show it haha...

Teases again here and there...

I had to go home with my mum nagging me to...fortunately I had done what I wanted to do...glad to meet Mark...doing well...sad that I didn't say what I really want to say to him but at least I saw him and hug him...such a big deal sia...I wanna cry but I can't cry....sigh...

Im happy still...

So...

Take care...

"While waiting for her at the toilet, he and I looked at each other exchanging signals to each other,haha"

Almost Ending Novermber, Welcoming December...

2009-11-27T03:30:00.000-08:00

Almost later part of the November has passed since I last blog, to be honest here, for this second, I really don't want to blog up but since I got the time to do so, so why not blog it!

Umm, PR (CA) Test occured last Wednesday, it was a really fruitful and satisfying good effort for me that I can definitely say that I did well enough to pass like around at least 45/50?

So yeah, not nervous and not anxious for my result.

Sigh! zzz Projects are aching my my heart and mind over...cooperating ok...only that for the last project grouping for PJMS...that liar bastard "anxiously" put his name in my group where I told him my final say that I need to discuss with my group members.

Cos you know what, he is like a evil follower, he's just keep following wherever we go once he sees us...

VERY IRRTIATING BASTARD I SAY~!

I don't even bother what other classmates think about it cos I am not meant to be the good one accept everyone to be in just to pity them...nah~!

I got this information from one of my close friends and I don't blame her at all.

Sigh, class test for MICE for next coming thursday and so the draft proposal for the PR,shit ah!

In additional which is not that bad, NAFA test for the girls is on next coming wednesday at 1.15pm which is 15 mins after the last lesson...just get and over with!

Yesterday, I got hooked up laughing with the jokes-fighting session with Erik and WeiQiang...I got slamdunked down by Erik as he obviously won, ahha whatever....

WeiQiang failed his "bluffing me out" mission that resulted me laughing up and away...and funny to his ending expression haha!

Now all I wanna do to relax myself wholeheartedly while I still can.

I think I won't be coming for tchouball sessions anymore...feeling like a loner there and obviously wasting my time hearing referee's/coach's nagging session about the acknowledgement of game rules so engrossfully...

Anyway I lived quite far away ending my body to dry out the energy.

My body will not be very happy with me...Im sorry...

"I see you in your every move, I wanna hold you down and just kiss you"

Being Cramped

2009-11-14T06:35:00.000-08:00

Projects and Tests including CA exams have started to jump on us already, that is quite a pressure to start this early..

Everyone in my class is pressured, well most of them....

Umm, I currently making notes for MICE and Public Relation class test around next week, STRESSED!

I still got mood to play computer games at Facebook,beating my classmates' scores,haha!

Sigh,school days are getting darker,quieter and definitely feeling a little more lonely cos of this stupid reason of mine is that I don't feel I wanna talk to them and there's nothing to talk about at all seriously...Same applies back at them.

Though I want to communicate with them, there's no more hot topics to talk about.

I just feel lonely there and I just wanna run away to another stage of my life...

Dear to myself, November is halfway done and Nearing Christmas and New Year...by then around 3 months to withstand and let go when graduation comes...

Though I can't wait to get out but my heart remined me that the time I have now should be taken necessarily and not wasting it.

So yeah, focus properly on studies and projects to "pei" me for the time being, hoping to put my mind to another state where I can be at least happy and occupied totally...

Praying that the ending will be good...

I really prayed that at the end of the darkest tunnel, there will be a light with the person I can embrace to...holding on till the end...

Whenever I see my guy classmates played Tckhou Ball game last Thursday, it reminded me about the times I had moments with each of them (most of them) in the past and recently past...they are great still and glad to know them though some of them are very irritating real bad...Sad thing we are not talking as much as we did before but its ok...At least I know them and their lives abit....

Haha, in whatever game there is, guys can make the game so entertaining and very lively than we girls do...yeah lah...rough out all the way!

"Im not talking to you cos I suspect something bad will happen if we come too close to each other...its not you but me..."

...

2009-11-02T04:06:00.000-08:00

Today is something I have been dulled after and I hate it the feeling to protect myself too defensive making my head hurts very badly.

Let me enjoy being outside more peaceful,can..please...

I was been asked by the lecturer by this repeating yet shocking question : What is one characteristic of your ideal partner?"

I was shocked to never know I would be one of the students to answer this....

I was too shy to say one...thinking of saying caring to be just blunt about it but if I can say it one more time, I will say it "mysterious"...

Yeah, I love mysterious guys because I love to get aniticpating of their next move or something and that's something will spice up the love life..hmm...hehe.

But not now, I am just not in the mood for it...

All I need is a guy to understand me (no offence to the girls) and as a friend...hug me when I am down till I sleep feeling the warmth.

" My Flower I love is Forever Growing And I Perserve it Till Im Gone..."

Since This New Term Starts, It Has Been...

2009-10-24T05:18:00.000-07:00

Boring,Boring,More Boring,More Boring and Very The Damn Boring! With all subjects are totally theorial, I will definitely will playing with my hairband and maybe follow Yve's ambition: Daydreaming! Haha...

Should make our own school CCA as the new addition to the CCAs: Do-The-Hell-You-Want! Club! haha

Seriously, I can't take it...

For me to make everyday school very interesting: Listen to music, do the puzzle thing and make notes including making little excuse to toilet as to take some fresh air before I really fall asleep in class!

Especially Mr Foong, reminds me of my neighbour,haha partly to that extent as the way he talks..dragging and like talk-anyhow-as-long-I'm-paid thing in him,haha..That's what I think.

At least Ms Ema made it the lesson look abit interesting or maybe because of her, I woke myself up to be attentive,haha...

Mrs Tan, I have no comments, it's just neutral...

Rating From Best to Worst:

1) Ms Ema (Best)

2) Mr Tan (Good)

3) Mr Foong (Out Of Bounds)

Hahaha....

Now I have to finished sewing the cross stitch constellation keychains by 16 November,Monday assigned by the Hobby Club...

And making notes as usual and hoping to put some into my thumbdrive(My brain),hehe

This weekday, something I found odd as happen again since like 2 months ago and I thought that it was hallucinated dream of my eye but it came true and repeated its course...

This scares and really me wanna faint to the core that I don't even wanna believe it...so I was like no way, what the heck...

This is just getting weirder but I am very anxious of where this goes...

So yeah...I hoping that projects will jump on us soon so as have more time to study for the final exams..yeah...

"Calling One's Name Loud and Clear Everyday Makes Me Think That Ya Obsessed with Me"

It's Crunch Time!

2009-10-17T19:24:00.000-07:00

Now I gathered my textbooks and notes with whatsoever involved, I really hoping I will give all I really have to show...to get the high score.

Subjects overalls, very boring as in very theorially dump you to sleep thing,haha...sigh, it is my part to make myself think school will be at least pretty exciting.

Something happened, but I will want to put everything aside because I put my main motive is to study really hard till I got my white hair out and get 3.5 and above gpa to able to hopefully proceed to the polytechnic that I have been eyeing on..hope so...

Having this, reminds me of the early days of Higher Nitec where my beloved short lived memories there and making notes was my morning rountine....people would think that I am the "siao" geek, coming very early just to make notes...I don't care...

And yeah back to that morning rountine soon...but harder...

Going to start paying back my fasting days soon...save money and add my strength of my patience to clear my anger...

Ok I better go play game, make notes and strum my guitar...as tomorrow I have guitar lesson with that Fake-Insulting-Joker teacher...6 more and I will strum him goodbye haha! I really can't wait...

"Professional Guitar Teacher, MY FOOT!"

Something About Love

2009-10-14T07:09:00.000-07:00

There is unrequited love of sight of the person in I as the keeper who my life entirely, love is entered and left, because the center is repaired eventually, does not tease…In all movements these showing, most the reason…A certain thing you shout, advance,…Clearing off and it starts freshly…Pray

" Jangan Lah, Tinggal Yang Tidak Ada Makna"

School Has Started!

2009-10-12T05:44:00.000-07:00

You Should Know What To Do ...

When Knowing Another School Term Has Started....

Hehe!

Reunited with my classmates...

Ms Ema handed out the statements of results and landyards effective from now to know identification by course department...cool but pretty troublesome...

Ms Ema As M.I.C.E lecturer...

Mr Foong As Project Management and Scheduling Lecturer...*

Mrs Jacqueline Tan As Public Relations Lecturer...^

* Assemble partly reminds me of my neighbour and Ms Angie Lee...Sigh, I just feel a sense of pity for him...I may think that he may not able to handle my hyperactive class.

^ Haven't seen her yet....

In Project Management and Scheduling Lesson, I have learnt about the definition of project and standard operations...that's all.

Knocked off early by 5 hours with Huda, had lunch at Burger King and went home...

"Everytime I help you, I feel I want to cry..."

Something To Entertain You

2009-10-11T04:57:00.000-07:00

ENJOY!

"I HELLA AM A WHOSE LINE IS ANYWAY FAN, WOO HOO!"

The Remains Of "Dragged" Freedom

2009-10-09T22:00:00.000-07:00

Umm...1 more day to "holida-lize" myself till the day after tomorrow is the officially termed as the school reopening for the second final time till next march of our class graduated, I feel shitting sad about that.

I feel I wanna turn back time and start all over again, be happy with my favourite people basically. Like I wanted to say " Who don't want to be the people they really like and want it to last forever?"

Sigh, my results from the previous term before this school holiday started has improved quite better...and thanked myself that I tried my very best and used all my nonsense techniques to really pull myself out :)

I know this information should have put up long time ago,haha ;)

Withe these remain good days of my time now, I will practise my guitar chords and stuff, clean some stuff and whatever I can to kill the time,hehe.

" I know it's crazy, but I gonna confessed that I love going to school!"

PS: I tried to change my playlist but the website was uable to do so,sigh...DESPERATE MUSIC CHANGE,MAN!

And...

IM SO ADDICTED TO "BOTTLE POP" FROM PUSSYCAT DOLLS,HAHA XD!

Hang Out With the Oldies

2009-10-08T00:05:00.000-07:00

Last Monday, as to continue my Hari Raya Quest...I went to visit my ex besties, Dianah and Sufyan house by house...

First I went to Dianah's house ( surprised that Sufyan was there already) , she and her auntie served us bee hoon with fried chicken pieces. I love her dress sia...somemore I love the purple pattern with cuts design all by her!

Man,I was a bit intimidated by her apparel haha!

I looked at them, they have grown up with some difference in them including me..

We didn't talk much at first, leaving everything to watch the "whatever-is-on" TV show...then I tried to start the conversation to Sufyan about his NS and other stuff that I know of....

Next was my house, where I showed them my dance videos,photos and other of my stuff to kill keep us going not keeping quiet too long....

They were surprised of my dancing and singing as I looked "different than I usually am, that's good..

We played UNO card game, the total time killer and the most fun part...talking about the recent articles from the Newpaper...

Finally, it ended at Sufyan's house...before that we girls went to the Yew Tee Point as Dianah wanted to buy her new hair clips to replace the spoilt ones...

While she did her thing, I mingled and asked some questions about the eyeliner that I have been "eyeing on" haha! I never knew that there is a such thing for glittered eyeliner in varieties of colours, that's cool...costs $3.90 for small bottle...and the eyeliner of Rhombus that Laytin owned it, ah huh...cost $7.90...yeah...wait till my current eyeliner R.I.P,haha!

At Sufyan's house, we went in and eat and watch the anime thing...Slience went in,oh no...so I told them about the old memories from our ex secondary school...from crush on teachers and funny incidents as far as I could remember,haha!

Finally, Dianah and I went home by bus and went on our separate ways by my home point...so yeah...

3 more days to school reopens,finally!

I better go and really practise my music chords on my guitar!

See ya!

" Thinking Of Holding You Tight And Kiss On Your Right Cheek "

IET Hari Raya-ing Outing!

2009-10-07T21:52:00.000-07:00

My-Favourite-cum-Almost-Turn-Out-Well-And-Good-Outing

IET HARI-RAYA-ING OUTING ON 2 OCTOBER 2009,FRIDAY!!!

Woke up from my mattress....

Thinking hell what to wear...

Getting pump up from breakfast...

Kidnap my favourite baru kurung

Wear it...

Disguise my face with masquerade-like makeup...

Making Messy-lu Good About Myself...

Bring my necessity...

OFF I GO!

Meet the Woodlanders and went on bus direct to Bedok interchange to meet the rest of our class gang...

First house was at Yani's house...I love the center-entrance part made me thought of the TV show " Survivor "...I love the jam-spread squares...very nice and sweet to taste!

Had a killing fun with WQ...He suddenly liked to tease the girls whoever seating around him including me,haha!

Joke here and there...take pictures here and there

Next house was Maznah's house, makan the bee hoon with nuggets and a drink...Had good time eating with WQ...he and his nonsense,haha!

Again taking pics here and there...

Seeing the guys watching the soccer game so in engrossity,haha...thinking they will be come the father to be in his favourite couch with his drink and shouting "GOAL!!!"

Next, it was my house! Im pretty nervous but I annoyed it....they came to my house like anxious kids for some haha! So yeah, feed them with cakes,fries and drinks...to be differentiate from eating another plate of noodles from previous two houses visited...

Sad thing it was quite a while they had to leave to another house at Sembawang (Ridhwan's)...his little cat so adorable and so shy it ran all over the place..haha

Following by Nurul's house where I ate quite alot to fill my stomach...the mee soto with potato cake..very the shiok!

Then Fitri's house, where we all watched the WWF show and finally at Masrifa house where I ate nuggets and flour pancakes and so comfortable with the remaining people...

I had to leave first together with Masturah and Weekeng as the night was getting late and had to go home...

Finally home...Im smiling that it turned out great and the best thing I ever encountered in my life all thanked to my class :)

We talked, We ate, We tease...I wish I can love you...

Now...

2009-10-06T21:16:00.000-07:00

A lot of things or I can say quite a few things has happened during its absense....

Let's start typing,dear!

Hahaha...

Umm...

1) F1 Singapore Grand Prix (25-27 September 2009, Friday to Sunday)

First day, I was pretty excited but the most of myself "instructed" me to be firm,strict and very the careful because I got a feeling that whenever I pass thru the authorized gates (for staffs and other authorized workers like me with pass), there would sure got guys (maybe,maybe not) with oily eyes and filthy mouths to "target" young fellows like me...

So as you would know I was too ready till whatever my heart told me was coming true and I thanked my heart whom reminded me for my safety...

The working experience was that I first instructed to usher the patrons to their seats according to the seat colour, number and row...

Easy yet confusing...due each colour has one except yellow has 2 partitions far apartin so called blocks...if this is difficult for you to understand, that's ok cos I got this tangled in this too haha!

Too many patrons oozing out from the stairs under the hot sun cooking us alive!

So far that time was ok...only I could do some exericise when the I observed patrons' faces shows "I still don't know" and then I had to guide them there,yeah....

That's it for that...proceed to the next day

Second and third day, I was shifted to the ground floor to guard the staircase and the staff area on my side to check the pass that stated "Bay Grandstand only" and direct the patrons to correct walking path and seats accordingly...

Good thing, I was under shelther with some entertainment to see...Thank God for that!

The angmohs were some drunk, dirty-minded and a bit cocky of themselves...(Good thing I never smiled) and I am used to it and nothing bad happened, that's what I prayed for very hard before my work days started...

I AM SO BLOODY FREAKY GLAD THAT F1 RACE WAS OFFCIALLY OVER,HELL YEAH!!!

to be continued...

Just About Me Randomly hehex

2009-09-24T02:26:00.000-07:00

Get to know yourself (me) better

Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you: You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

The Real You

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you.

You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life.

You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well.

People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves.

You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice.

You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible.

You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult!

Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person.

Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking

Pictures Of My Favourite Games On Facebook

2009-09-23T13:00:00.000-07:00

Pictures Of My Favourite Games On Facebook

Sorority Life

Sex In The City BETA (Game)

For Now I Am Going To Buy:

Feather Hair Band

Clinelle Skincare ^^

OK I'M OFF! *BROOM~!*

"*smiles*"

Hari Raya and Whatever Else Post

2009-09-22T02:37:00.000-07:00

Hey Everyone!

I wanna wish to all Muslims Peeps A Selamat Hari Raya Adilfitri, Maaf Zahir Dan Batin!

Suppose to be very glamourous,pop-action and hyper happening right?

For me, not so...Cos I am not that excited and will be very draggging when comes to people house whom I am not that close with or none at all....

Unless coming to my friends' house then I will be quite hyper about it,hehe...not interested in the money but the kuih-kuih to fill my container,haha (That's my brother term of stealing food in our stomach haha~!)

Till now, my family and I just recently visit some of our relatives house from my father and grandmother side...yeah nothing much...

OK TURN BACK THE CLOCK!

Last Wednesday 16 September 2009, Yve and I went to a faraway place which is Simei ITE...going all great length just for a talk of the F1 thing cum questions-answers session..

I thought that it would last for 2 hours but in the end was a wasting trip!

Cause of the SGP staffs supposed to be presented there mainly for the talk but suddenly unavailable for that day...so there goes my burning questions waiting to be answered left unanswered, >.<"

Only that, the teachers of my school talk about the usual stuff like good behaviours, Do and Donts and so on...

During that, Yve and I made a lot of funny fool of ourselves because of me,haha!

All of this lasted for an hour! WAH PIANG LEH! WASTE MY TRANSPORT MONEY!

We went out like mumbling aunties haha!

We alighted on the bus when one of my senoir colleague saw me...smiling and waving at me in the same bus....*I intially pretending not to know him haha but had to say hi to him at least for respect lah haha*

Yve,you want me to book him for your next date or not? haha!!!

We then went to the Raffles City Shopping Mall to kill time as I was fasting that time. We went to all the departments of the shop thing...especially making ourselves childish in the kids toys section,haha!

After that, we went to the seating area where we cam-whoring quite a handful of our beautiful poses and our very own fashion advertisments/ cover magazine! CHEH WAH, WE CAN BECOME FASHION MODELS,SIA HAHA!

We talked and walked to the Fountain of Wealth the underground to the Macdonald to break my fast...

Finally went home...

Thursday 17 September 2009, Yve,Laytin and I went to school to collect our SGP usher t-shirts and pass. On the way out, we saw some of our classmates with the same purposes...one realized that "my two thingy" were gone haha! I guess I will be famous for that.

(Yeah, I got my hair cut into bangs in shorter concave length with some trimming parts and I feel so good about having short hair though I love long hair which makes me look sexy haha...no lah..having short hair is easy to maintain and instant style,mah!)

Next location we went was ION Orchard which Ah Ting has been dying to go =)

The place was a damn good2 place to shop and hangout...

And the shop,UNIQLO shop Laytin desperated to go, got me fallen in love with that shop cause they have available clothes in plus size and nice designs, so cool! I am sure to come again with my mum to boom the shop next time round hehe!

Hopping to one shop to another shop, they decided to have lunch at the basement foodcourt...

While they were eating, I took pictures with them eating hokkien mee and "murdering" the prawns muahaha!

POOR PRAWNS! HAHA! >.<"

I listened to my MP3, thanks goodness for that...to kill time...I should have brought my word puzzle!

When the makan session is over, we all went to Wisma Atria to have more look around...on the way we took pictures, posing here and there.

Finally, our final pit stop was at Takashimaya Shopping Centre...I wanted to go to the Art Friend to buy my brushes as all my old brushes have turned weak and grey -_-"

In addition, they went around the shop and I gave them "my little art tour " as I am a proud art student/lover haha! I step sendiri haha!

After mingering around, we went to the bookshop and the souveiner shop thing. Again, we took pictures like we were flirting with the sexy fashion model covers at some shops,haha!

Finally, we had our dinner at KFC and went home...(luckily I brought my jacket cos it was freezing cold in the shopping mall!)

These few days, all thanks to Yve's game intro game: Sorority Life in facebook...

ANNOUNCEMENT: I AM OFFICIALLY HOOKED UP WITH SORORITY LIFE AND SEX IN THE CITY GAME! HAHA!

BEEN PLAYING THAT ALMOST EVERYDAY AND MOST OF THE DAY! WOOO!

THEY ARE BOTH FUN TO PLAY AND BASICALLY IT IS ABOUT IMPROVING LIFE THING...

COMING SOON!

1) F1 RACE SGP,this coming friday! I can't wait but scared of doing the answering the patrons' difficult enquiries...heeee!

2) Class Hari Raya Outing (2 October 2009,Friday) FINALLY! I better arm myself with my camera and other electronic gadgets,haha!

3) Other Friends Hari Raya Outing

4) Other Unsung Locations Outing With Yve and Laytin!!

Though it looks like I am gonna have a busy period of life but nah...still will be bored...gonna be doing my personal stuff of course...

These days, I have been forgeting the stress thing till I forget the things that should be done...but thanks to that I have been in peace to the max...should have that feeling more often..hehe!

I end here,boohoo...byes...

REMEMBER I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU! HAHA!

"I want to dare myself to risk my pride to fall for you but I'm just chickened out,boohoo :("

Interview and Its DownFall With A Story To Remind

2009-09-14T13:55:00.000-07:00

Ok I have things to say here in this blog of mine...here it goes...

Last Wednesday 9 September 2009...

I traveled as early as 8.15 in the morning by MRT train from Choa Chu Kang To Tanah Merah to have my final interview of designer at ITE Simei at 10am...which I reached there 5 minutes earlier...phew that was close.

I thought I was going be a little late...

Before I reached there...I was inside the train and listening to the music, then I got a call from JJ; asking me about the things to bring and so on...

Then I asked him where he was at that time...he told me..that he was still at home! Hhaha!
LOL..

That caught me surprised that in the end he reached there first instead of me T_T...

We sat in the meeting room...He played with his PSP and I went toilet to do the business bla bla haha!

FASTFORWARD~!

Ok, we met a new colleague or friend named Shafiqa who is from admin course...

Mr Richardo assigned us to do:

1) 2 Build Ups Posters
2) 1 Launch Poster
3) 1 Final Event Poster

The theme is...."Superheroes,Villians and Sidekicks"

Deadline: 5.15pm that day!

RUSH! CHARGE! TAKE THE FREAKING DAMN IDEA OUT OF MY HEAD! WORK IT!

But he was nice enough to let us at least complete the basic concept of the event theme...so yeah I chill abit..

I was first trying to trace the superheroes in adobe illustrator but I realized that it would sure take alot of time and the clock was ticking quite fast...

So yeah I decided to go back to my basic...hand-drawn the superhero thing and colour them quickly...

During our serious progress to complete our work...haha that's where my favourite part starts unknowinglessly, J.J started to make alot of nonsense like squeking his chair and make alot of so called child ghost sounds...

A bit irritatiing but mostly got me laughing sick! haha!

JJ's self entertainment caught a better of me till I decided to go along with him..making us as the life of the party thing,haha!

I pitied Shafiqa that she had to hear all the nonsense that JJ said,haha!

Yeah lah thanks to him, our serious faces had faded away,Happy now! haha!

We had more bonded-fun than we had in class...haha

At the end of the day, Mr Richardo commented that I know how to conceptualise,hehe...He said like as if Im the gold card like that haha!

Finally went home,feeling dead tired...So happy...able to take that chance

Last Friday 11 September 2009

I called Mr Richardo to confirm to start working but in the end..I was duped cos I think that they want a permanent worker that can work for a full time...So they will let me know if they need my assistance so you can label me as the freelance designer..I hope so...

So sad sia...thought go there and do my favourite stuff and importantly have some spice in my long dragging holidays...I guess not for now...boohoo!

So bad... T_T

So yeah, Im stucked at my home, rotting myself till you can see my "dead body"...

I am going to sketch all the time but in the end my hands are on the computer playing games on facebook and listening to music most of everyday,haha..

Ok That's All for now...

For this...you gotta read this...cos this is a good stuff about life and people around you... =) ENJOY!

It suddenly struck me that ''I love you, so I'm letting you go" is kind of ridiculous.
If you really love someone, wouldnt you go all out for him/her?
If you're so much in love, why would letting go be an option?
Okay, maybe lest you're so tired of trying, of mending the r/s, and really so torn inside and worn out, then maybe ''letting go'' is the only option left.
Still, no one would let someone so dear go right?
No matter how shattered you are, you'd still hang on that last bit of strength right?
Im talking things in general, not only for couples but friendships and anything that has got to do with feelings for each other.
& once in a while, its good to give each other some time off right? (but if you do, please let the other party know otherwise it'd just break their heart further)
Well, everyone needs a break.
So it might not seem so bad as it is. If you're not even willing to try, things might turn worst.
Nothing is predictable in this world.
If you think back, has it even struck you that you'd fall in love with someone you did right now?
Has it ever occured to you that the perfect r/s you thought you've had is gone? Or that you've ended up wherever you are right now?
Anyway, life is really short. You never know when it will end. You never know whats going to happen the next minute or seconds. You never know who'd cross path with you and leave their footprints behind. So embrace all that you have :)
Sometimes, life isnt only about yourself.

September Post

2009-09-08T22:22:00.000-07:00

Sigh,ok...to be honest here...I seriously don't have anything interesting or outstanding things to state here...

But just for the sake of making this blog of mine look very "current", I decided to update about my new class exhibition release and final interview for Designer job...

Yesterday, I had a quite a long and upbeating conversation with Yve about my latest funny anime class exhibition in album named "I Tag You,IET!" on facebook...

I decided to do that because mainly due to deep boredomness strikes me real bad that seduced me with an idea...which is stated from the previous paragraph.

The anime pictures I randomly picked up were from the photobucket.com.

I became very addicted and excited about it, thinking about the outcome and response from my classmates about this...

Im lovin' it till I made some little story based intro about some pictures and tagging my classmates fit to each anime characters...

Overall I found it fascinating!

I glad that I made it...

The best part I love is the comments and expressions my classmates made...

So funny and very entertaining to watch =)

I think I will make another one by next year 2010....like a finale to everything...

Hope so...

Also, one of the interviewer called and smsed me that my final interview on 10am at the ITE Simei as usual...lala

Bring my laptop and drawing materials that got me interesting as I am all art rounder-lover person....I am excited about it and so wish me luck that I am able to get my job finally..hehe!

As for now, I am bored at home...with little thing I can do are doing word puzzles, doing some drawing stuff and maybe change my blogskin soon....

"Nothing is impossible if kick that person blocking your way,haha!"

This Can't Be Helped I realized...

2009-08-28T02:07:00.000-07:00

All class presentation and projects are officially out of my life that gives me a sense of good relief and very happy...

The lessons for this semester is going to end to none and the holidays is greatly approaching...

Memories started to refresh my mind again and again...

The thing I want to remember is how someone and I have this little moments I never knew these will make a big impact in my heart..

That someone I am not that close to will instantly become so close that I wanna cry...

What I see this person is like that someone is like a pure angel with a powerful charm to comfort me in anyway...

I remember I walk alone with that person smiling widely at me and put his hand on my shoulder...while I was walking..

That feeling I get is so strong that my eyes are hardly close and my heart starts to beat so hard I hardly breathe..

To become the hypnostised victim under the eye contact of that person..

But I knew that it is just a seconds fantasy...

There's no way I can enter his life...cos there's too much differences to bare..I barely understood the possible link between me and him...

Im just sad that I found a perfect guy yet he's not fit to be mine anymore...

"I guess I have to move on and keep on finding the one for me"

Getting More Guarded

2009-08-23T00:41:00.000-07:00

Now as for me is the holiest month when time has let us to do more of our personal time to ourselves in any case.

Well, I am happy that my group has handed up the IEP Event Proposal though I personally saw 1 or 2 things I may not like but I don't want to bother too much cos my voice will never reach their ears...

For the first time of all project history I have done, my workload is not so heavy as it usually be...sigh..so happy and my heart feels very light...even being scolded won't affect my facial expression...haha...

Oh yeah, I went for an interview which I applied for Designer who produces postcards etc with the module I learned currently...

It was at ITE Simei and ehem..one incident I just wanna bring up...haha

I was searching for the location for the interview cos the school is enormously big and I mean it is BIG! It is like a maze of hell if u school there but the luxury there is very worth yet expensive especially having a simple meal in the music-filled canteen,haha!

I was lucky enough not to school there since its far far away from home...

Ok, I walked and searched for it in the certain pathway...

This group of malay boys passed me except for this guy..

I went here, he went here..

I went there, he went there...

Then I realized that he wanna ask me something I don't know...he looked into my eyes...

Asking me for tissues!?

WTH!

He done all that for tissues...

Ask me casually,can o not!?

My face is in default stiff when looking at him and say in a cold tone "..No.."

He thanked me..then walked away...

By the way, I really got a gut feeling seconds before that happen..haha

I wanna laughed,haha

At the interview, I was first to do it...

The interviewer asked me alot of questions about my work,interests,future plan(after graduating) and so on..

It was very long like 30 min plus if I not wrong...

But it was very fun and relaxed one...which I intially thought that it would be a stiff one...

Since I told the interviewer that I can so called duplicate people face...

He looked very excited that he asked me to draw his gf pic in fast pace....WHAT! HAHA! WHAT A OPPORTUNITY!

I know it is a small thing but good enough for an art-lover like me haha..

When I started to draw, there is another guy named Farhan who applied for junor event mananger...whoa...

I never gave my name to him cos if I did, I scared that he would ask me a lot of questions about my race and left no time for me to draw properly by then...

But just being considerate, I just asked him some basic questions while drawing intially....

He's nice and cute haha but nah dun wanna bother catch him anyway haha

I must draw the pic properly cos DUH! HIS GF AH! WAIT HE SCOLDS ME IF I DRAW HER OUT OF PORTION HAHA!

In the end, I finished and he commented it that it was cute! phew~! haha!

Went home..finally..tired sia especially came back form long distance journey...

I wanna a part time job during free days and weekends...

Cos I knew my life is getting more boring every single second...

I dun wanna rot my precious life...

So why not spice things up haha!

Ok lah, that all I wanna state here for now..

Till then, see ya later ;)

"The Mentalist is the best tv show I ever seen, Simon Baker is darn hot! haha!"

A boy who never fails to get my heart,my everything...

2009-08-14T04:28:00.000-07:00

Hey! I guess you have been waiting long enough for my latest update...

Ok my class has coordinated 2 events which are Masquerade Party (Changing Faces) (070809) that's the date occured and a very good number,don't you think so? *take as a toto number haha!*

My Comment: It was hella of the best event I ever attended especially with my best classmates I ever had...never gotta forget the memories we made during that event...So I give my hands up and down to Happy2 Pte Ltd! ;P

Then yesterday it was my own group event (Estrella Kudos Production Represents Class Award Cum Circus 2009)...(130809)..The progress of transporting,setting and decorating including whatever involved really take our energy out of ourselves. Run here and there..check2 like no end to it to make sure it's ok...

I initially thought that there would be problems occured cos we may not know the overall thing of our event should carry out..but it seems that it went incredibly well..Thank God For That!

My Comment: Though our event programme was pretty short, we had fun till we turned into party animals and yeah, smiles are everywhere on our classmates' faces...haha! Good Job to Estrella Kudos Production for the contribution...

Ok now, there is boy never fails to get all the girls heart including mine..he's such a lady-killer. To me, just only his presense has brought me a love attack which will freeze me to death...I will GAGA about him in my mind lah..But I am lucky enough to withstand that haha!

Seriously, he is such a fine2 young man...He is like a perfect angel come down from heaven to earth sia..Whenever he says something or whatever he does, it brings me to smile very very big..

But he's attached like hotcakes popping haha and anyway he's pretty young as good to become like my little brother,sigh..Im sad sia...

Im sad I am older than him....and not able to get so called good and clean love affair with him..sigh..a perfect man slips through my fingers...

"You are damn hot young man...just be careful of the weak-hearted girls out there getting on ya haha! Cos you just got me heatin' "

When Seeing Things Get You Killed

2009-08-02T06:08:00.001-07:00

Sigh, nowadays whenever I am home, I will be like all out and just laze around like nobody business but whenever I am in school, people around me is getting distant and the life once before the great fun is now getting dim...

Though I am laughing and smiling in class, there is no such times to get me really excited like I once before since the beginning...

My class...each of them has their own gang, there's one gang I really kinda amazed of them cos of their extremely dangerously charismatic life in them...way way above I have been witnessing for my last 20 years...

They are so like family of their own...I can't deny that...

Only I don't like is being treated differently on a dark side...and I know it myself...but I just don't care about it anymore...My energy of wanting to revenge has gone down to zero as I am getting older and my health somehow may affect due to my body getting overlimit...

Well, I can say is that I cannot be the person who can be the 100% infinitely total fun all year long...I don't want to fake smiling and ending up "killing" you...

I am a woman whom you should not have high expection on cos I really hate that the most from the person whom I make friends with...

Now I just wanna get out of here and find the light for me and only me to where I really belong... where my heart begin to beat happily again....

"You Can't Expect Me To Feel The Pain When I Got Smacked By A Volleyball Cos I Can't Feel Anything As My Body Halfway Died"

2009-07-26T16:46:00.000-07:00

I don’t know if I think that whether I really busy during the absence of my blog; because I had dance practice, site-checking the venue, ordering the decorations cum coordinating with my other members’ opinions....bla bla bla...

Nowadays, my body is too stubborn to listen to me...because my body just don’t want to move though I really wanna move ....lol I have to drag my sleeping body through the day.

Still a lot of things to worry and need to be done, that drives my mind apart a big time...I just need to calm down at this point till the commencement of the project stated “Game Over.” Sigh, I really can’t wait for that day...

Then yesterday, I went with my mum together with her working colleague who has done a wonderful job serving us worry-free transport in his car since he lives at Malaysia.

A few incidents happened along the way...and yeah...a bit unfortunate for some and others very unfortunately funny...that my mum and her colleague blabbering with their lungs out...so funny seh haha! Like mother and son having a good time quarrel haha ..

The objective to go there is to make my own gown for my performance at Masquerade Party on 7 Aug 2009, Friday. Including making two baju kurung for me and my mum...

I seriously hope that my gown will be ready in 10 days time...please auntie...hehe...I seriously customised my own dream dress for my dream party I have been waiting for a long time...

I wanna look glam and seductive on that day since I will be doing my vocal performance.

A has fallen in love with B for 7 years together and out of sudden, the B’s parents has make a fixed marriage with C against the B’s will and instantly breaking A and B long time relationship to an awful tragedy.

I was like WTF! To the parents who make a fixed marriage with another person who B doesn’t even know or love that person sia...to me is like selling your precious stuff to the garbage monster...stupid sia....I really can’t believe having fixed marriages still exist!

I don’t care even the parents think that “this” is for their children’s sake of the future...initially B will have obviously forceful love marriage and for sure B will not be happy including dragging her pain and tears for being away the man she knows and love him very much for 7 years...not months but years...

I really feel sad for them...being together for so long...with the parents just heartlessly breaking the lovebirds apart...

I dun understand what the hell the parents are thinking sia...regardless whether the parents themselves having fixed marriage from the beginning...

Hello heartless parents, marriage is basically is about two people from all walks of life who “are willing to love each other and able to bond each other naturally”

NOT FORCING THE CHILDREN TO LOVE WHO THEY DON’T LOVE AND INTIALLY HATING THE HEARTLESS PARENTS TO THEIR GRAVES AND AFTER LIFE!!!

I pray that the wedding will be postponed and better never coming true to whatever reasons for holding it back..

Maybe the two love birds will be together again...

Hope that third party will be out of bounds and never be in hindrance between them!

I seriously wish I can do something to prevent that happen!

I wanna open up the parents’ eyes to see the greatest sin they have done...

Sad...so sad to see love getting the thorns out of this...after so long...

"Bleeding Love,Bleed Bleed Bleeding Love..."

Get Wrong and Surprised

2009-07-16T04:18:00.000-07:00

This week is getting crazy shit.

First, I first heard that S&W Lesson was annouced that it would start at 2-3pm...so left off at 11.30am and went to the J8,having Mac for Lunch and rest around...till then...

But to my horror...I went back to school and the S&W Lesson has almost ended!

Miscomunication or so called bias that turned out to be 1-2pm..F***!

Some classmates laugh at us of being late..*Shrugs...I don't care about that*

I not purposely wanna that to happen but was looking forward to it, u shit hell!

Then I was pretty disheartened and decided to ignore whatever shit happen but to have a chat with Laytin and Yve...for gossips and others...

We talked about alot of things such as "How "Dangerous" is he" and whatsoever on...in the random empty classroom...

I told a secret to them which turned out to be not so called secret anymore cos Yve got it as the same way I do,haha!

I felt so so so so relieved...

Laytin went home while I and Yve went to Yve's house to see what clothes she can wear on the Masquerade Party and practise our rountine.

Her area was so windy that I felt I wanna shift my house to there haha!

I reached home at around 7 plus at night...

F1 training started on last wednesday, was ok-ok because at least the instructor shared us with his life funny work experiences and so go including almost a fight with a customer from China...

I learned quite alot of him and he is indeed very funny person...

But in theory part, as usually you can say, it was very draggy boring and somemore under aircon for long hours...brrr!

I was lucky enough to bring jacket of mine due to rainy situation at the first place....Having jacket is indeed a very useful tool :)

After the training, I was suddenly very tired and struggle myself to be alert to go home...

Yes,thank goodness I made it home safely =)

Just now this morning, I met Yve at the bus interchange...and started to talk to her.

Guess what to my amazement,Yve told me a secret that got me shocked and got my heart a 1/4 broken...very sad but happy for him lor...what more I can do?

Wish him and his "ehem" will be together even they can withstand the tough obstacles together...AMIN~!

>.< v

Hehe...

Actually, besides me getting the heartbreak, there is the other one too get it...Im felt for her...

Dun worry girl, there are more suitable fishes in the open ocean everywhere and can anytime can catch the real deal with your bait,hehehe! ;)

" I told ya, Love such as in Fantasy or Real World, no such thing everlasting love,BULLSHIT!"

Quite A "Rainbow-ful" Week

2009-07-11T01:15:00.000-07:00

Since the school has opened its gates for us the students to start the ball rolling, umm...back to discussing the project thing...that's just making me sick again...I mean in my head...

But the good point is that we all got a hang on it and yeah left others kick a fist out of it...I scare of the last minute catfighting problems coming up.

Su,don't think too much (Advise by Dr.Yve,haha) She is the only good doctor who can withstand my extremely randomness madness mind,haha...somemore it is free! haha~~! XD

Hiring performers is very very the expensive which at least at usual $200- to whatever over your head!

So Yve,Laytin and I started to do our own dance rountine for our event...it was quite hard because of the cooperation and timing need to be exact of all of us...if not it will be messy...

We kept on practicing and practicing, yeah we got a hang of it...on the way we laugh like hell cos of the funny NGs we made haha! Very tiring at the same time so we took some break during the practise, cheh wah, we like doing this for competition sia,haha!

Yeah, we are just like discussing the dressup,makeup and whatever crap must involved in our dance appearance haha!

I think we may look seductive cos of the song I chose, I can't tell u now but later *wink*

I am very excited to do my own singing dream come true at my another classmate's event which is Masquerade Party which is another dream come true! YEAH! I love you,muaks!

What a double treat for me, I sing and dance with my dream party coming true at the same time which is very the shiok man!

I gonna make it a worthwhile memory for me with all my daugthers...we must get drunk right,Yvette?! haha!

That's all I have to say lah...

You...looking at me

With your eyes direct at me...

Oh no you don't

You just don't do that please

You just got love shot

By just a random cupid angel

To sabotage me

So please don't!

"Some light situation gotten me deep chills in my spine"

Time to blog before the life of this blog runs out...

2009-07-02T20:18:00.000-07:00

Hey,peeps in my turf haha!

It has been 1 week and 2 days since I last blogged...

Here it goes what has been going on with my life during the absence...

Before I start the line, I want to pay my tribute to the Legendary Pop Icon of All Times...

Rest In Peace (29 Aug 1958-25 June 2009)

May God Have Mercy On Him And Blessed Him With Light That His Soul Will Be Peace

MJ, I will never forget what your music has done to this world, you are my number no 1...To Me, your music is the part of my life where encourages me to do things that I can because of you...

I will never believe that you are gone because I know and feel that you are with us, wherever you are...

Love from me to you,MJ...

My group, Estrella Kudos Production is progressing quite alot and good thing that we have finally booked the venue...wee~!

But still we have alot of things to do in a few weeks time..drives me crazy...

I am assigned to do part of the proposal and doing decoration...yeah that's my niche..haha

FirstlY,Yve and I went to school to do some parts of "Keep Clean" something like that poster...and we talked crap a lot,haha..and done some colouring something2 haha...secret...and went for lunch at KFC....Talking more craps haha...

Yve and I then went to the Adam and Eve Gifts and Packaging located at Upper Serangoon Road to see the stuff and wanna order but the problem is that we scared that we order too much or little since we dunno the actual size of the venue....

We asked alot of questions, which was very intenstively feeling I got..I dunno about Yve...haha....

I made alot of noises once we out of the shop,haha cos it stresses me out,man!

Especially being the first time in the real situation to handle a real event, I mean REAL DEAL!

Then still got time, Yve intro to me to the Heartland Mall located near Kovan...

Finally, how many years I have been waiting to see the Kovan Condo, I finally see it personally... it is cool.. :) Thanks to Yvette,muaks haha!

At the Heartland Mall, small yet there's alot of things to see and there's great stuff better than Lot 1 haha..

We came to that particular shop called SKP which also party stuff a bit more than Adam and Eve shop because they actually seel clown wigs,witch hats and so on....

I bought the mask for one of my classmates' event on 8 Aug...I so wearing it as I will be performing...so happy..thanks again to Yve haha!

We tooked some pictures of ourselves,making a fun of ourselves haha

Finally we went home...exhausted hehe

I saw you in a glance..finally...

I smiled to myself...walking away

Though I can't love you

The memories hold dearly my heart

Glad that you came part of my life..

"My Metamorphosis Of My Time"

Learning Something New and I MISS YOU SHAFIRIN!

2009-06-16T07:32:00.000-07:00

Recently I have been going through stages from sore throat to fever which lasts for 4 days. I was first thought I could withstand the common illness but I should have listen to my parents... stuborn old fool me...haha

Only realized at its worst after talking on the phone with Yve...I felt the dizzy and a heavy fatique that my body may not bear. Went to see doctor with my dad..

While waiting,listening to mp3 and sms-ing my friends about the tomorrow outing and stuff.

Midst of now, I am in charge of recruting the performers to our event...

I first thought it would be a walk in the park but haha I swear too low of myself to find one...

But there will be always be the light at the end of the tunnel, I finally came across the website that listed all of local performers...

Now I have quite a bunch of them including Yve's recommendation and my friend's dance crew from ITE Tampines...hope it will be successfully accepted...OH PLEASE...HOPE IT WILL COME TRUE~!

Projectwise...as again like Hui Lian said that there are a lot of progression...but in finding, sourcing and quoting...

Anyway..hoping we all can kill the timeline and finished it...

Tomorrow I will be going with Yve and Laytin....to find the prizes for the lucky draw and so go...

Alots...Alots of things to do...very confusing since it is our first time to really execute the real event...like a heart-thumbling and gives a cold sweat..haha

During the progressing of this project, I learned quite alot of ideas and solutions...I mean Im surprised...

Ok lah I better sleep now...due to medication I took now...sleepy...*poof*

PS: It has been almost 2 years now since I saw you waiting and looking at me from the empty classroom...Till now I never believe I am in your eyes that time...sorry for not making the following move...but I hope that I will meet you soon somehow...

"zzzzIZZZMISSZzzzUzzzSHAFIRINZZZZ...."

What A Harsh Feeling...

2009-06-12T04:04:00.000-07:00

Hey Im Back from Hell already, with time and emotions in both my hands and heart to blog it in...yes I SHALL! HAHA!

Where should I start? Cuz Im still in the daze doing this...

I start slowly ah,k?

My Project Event Group is now named to "Estrella Kudos Productions" ( I kinda like it...though it hurts me that "Metamorphosis" was resulted "killed" by that)

Nah..I dun mind much...at least I am very grateful that the project event progress is on the move....FINALLY!

Im not the culprit who swish the wand for miracles...whatever it is...I am very happy and NOT ANGRY MODE.....no more...

Anyway being too angry and all shot up affected my health...so I better take care of myself since Im getting older...

Ok I have to find the suitable doorgifts with Yve and Ah Ting at the same time I will have to source the budget,gantt chart,performances (I will think I may get insulted....and I don't know why...but I myself want it ...I ok with it) and other promotional deep shit stuff.

I predicted that my holidays are now "not very glorious" all because of that...with just 3 weeks on our hands to make it work...

Our group and I will be conducting an event which is basically about Circus cum Class Award in a whacky and classic way...cool ah? It will be on 13 August,Thurs...yeah hope it will turn out fine..

That's all I have to end here..byezzzzzzzzzzzz...........

"Hunger is the best seasoning"

Stand On MY Jelly Legs

2009-05-29T01:42:00.000-07:00

Yes, someone did help me to cheer up enough for me to stand up and step out of my darkness...

But I know...my emotions tend to be selfish...cos of the past I have been through this way too many times....

My conclusion is that The Angels Will Fall Deep First While The Devils Will Laugh and Control... Everything...

It never get out of my mindset no doubt....

I now you don't understand at this point....And I don't give a care about it anymore...

You are not alone with groups of friends...that console you like a human being...

But me as the "thing".....used and abandoned...like trashing empty drinking bottles...

I don't understand this type of concept...in this world....like all good things must be the bad ones...so called..."The Ultimate Trend"...

Being Sidetrack for a second, I wish I wanna go back to 70s-90s where simple minds and being cherish were all there...not being loose...

I don't know when I can breathe again...

Im scared...that's all I have to say....

"There's one big shadow is waiting to see me down and out"

My Lame-Starter Leader and other "urge" thoughts

2009-05-27T00:03:00.000-07:00

I was first wanted to update anotther current entry last night but I was out of energy,something like that

Ok like Hui Lian said in her blog for our project-wise no progress but...now abit more progress up but still it is still back to step one.

I wanna speed it up but I dun have that leadership control so I let Evefar do her thang...I dun mind....at least I can "slack" myself...for a while

No offence, I confessed I cannot be in charge with my members...cos the "best" one will be always be the outgoing one that's make me not the one...hookay?

I can onli be prepared for the worst situation where all the last big minute work to be done and alot of screeching words soon allowed to entertain in our ears...

How nice...but I hope not "dangyunhaji"~!

Sigh, another thing is that I am hoping to pray that the time will pass quickly for this time period till I graduate.

But meantime, I now searching for school voluntary works and events to keep myself busy....

Sigh, sad thing like this:

Events: Zero

Voluntary Work:1

Attachment: Pending...(It is meant for the Higer Nitec Year 1 first) I really want to have it!

2 more weeks to June/July Holidays....I dun wan boredom no more~!

Oh yeah, still have "Go Green" Poster Competition and other Design Application assignments to do...make me busy,baby haha!

Ok I better pack stuff that I don't need to be sent to the Team Lenity (if I'm not spelling it wrong) >.<

Extras!:Meaning of Moles On Your Face

"Weird is my middle name, what's yours random,Extinct?"

Finding my man

2009-05-25T03:05:00.000-07:00

Have you ever thought that in the nearest future,sooner or later...

Whether you or someone out there,regardless on who find first will be such a wonderful thing. Especially that person has been through the same situation in both of good and bad as you?

I am thinking that...after having too much love silly fantasy in my mind and gotten myself in an awful mess...sigh...

Now I just going to start to believe that someone out there who will be lonely and trapped like me will find me...

Hoping that we will meet at the right place, right time and right moment one day...

I really pray so...

I may not know who you really are

But I hope you will be...

Someone I can be honest with my real self

I can count on in everything I may fall

You may be holding on side by side with me

Willing to make everything going simple

Yet breath taking

May you be finding me

And I find you

Even in the strangest place

In whereas the perfect moment of truth

Hope you find me soon...

" Seeing you around,Angel in Disguise "

Night at the Museum 2

2009-05-24T00:16:00.000-07:00

I watched this movie yesterday after I have done my voluntary work at the Toa Payoh Elderly Care Centre.

I love the movie very much as it is very adventurous with alot of love and funny bits altogether.

I rated it 5/5! I love Ben Stiller and I wished that I can just push him on the wall and kiss him haha...

Don't worry it is just a love fantasy and not a star stalker out of nowhere,haha!

So ok, there's more I can say but I don't want to be the spoiler as this movie is recently launched last Thursday.

That's all for now...

"Don't steal my man,haha! LMAO"

Blankies

2009-05-23T05:34:00.000-07:00

You Were Born into the Earth Element

You are a responsible person who values the joys of working hard.
You are practical, stable, and (obviously) down to earth.

You have to watch out for boredom. Your life needs more romance, adventure, friendship, and fun.
You are a solid friend and an ideal partner. You are honest, nurturing, and loyal.

http://blogthings.com/whatelementwereyoubornintoquiz/">

What Element Were You Born Into?

Your Friendship Style is Gregarious

You love being with people, and you find it easy to make friends.
Hanging out with your friends gives you a real charge, and you tend to be busy every night of the week.

You enjoy interesting conversations and shared activities with your friends. Your motto is: "The more the merrier"
While you love your friends, you don't love it if they put demands on you. You don't think that friendship should be about obligation.

You and an Empathetic Friend: Are get along best one on one. Your Empathetic Friend loves talking about your social circle but may feel left out when the whole gang is around.

You and another Gregarious Friend: Are a perfect match. You've finally found a friend who's as outgoing and fun loving as you are.

You and an Independent Friend: Are well suited for each other. You don't put too demands on your Independent Friend, and your Independent Friend finds you fascinating.

You and a Philosophical Friend: Are pretty different. You're high energy. Your Philosophical Friend is more cautious. You'll have to meet in the middle and learn from one another.

What's" Your Friendship Style?

Your Brain is Profound

Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama.
Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time...
But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you.
You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatpatternisyourbrainquiz/">

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

You Are 76% Feminine, 24% Masculine

You are in touch with your feminine side.
Sensitive, intuitive, and caring are all words that describe you.
And you're just masculine enough to relate to both men and women.

http://www.blogthings.com/areyoumasculineorfemininequiz/">

Are You Masculine or Feminine?

You Are 36% Girly

You are a pretty hardcore tomboy, and a very free spirit.
Gender roles be dammed, you like to do things your way.

http://www.blogthings.com/howgirlyareyouquiz/">

How Girly Are You?

Your Kiss is Black

Your kisses are amazing. You put a lot of effort into your kissing technique.
You are a perfectionist, and you never leave any kissing detail to chance.
When you're kissing, you like to be in charge. You don't enjoy someone else taking the lead.
You know you're the best kisser. In fact, you're often disappointed by how other people kiss.

Kissing Type: Thoughtful

People See Your Kisses as: Amazingly unreal

You Kiss Best With: A Pink Kisser

Stay away from: A Green Kisser

http://www.blogthings.com/whatcolorisyourkissquiz/">

What Color Is Your Kiss?

You Are 53% Open

You are a fairly open person, but you also like to maintain your privacy.
You definitely will tell all (okay, almost all) to your closest friends...
But strangers and acquaintances only get a peek into your life.

http://www.blogthings.com/howopenareyouquiz/">

How Open Are You?

You Are a Banana Smoothie

You are friendly and popular without even trying to be. People just like you.
You are easy to be around and never offend everyone. You're quite mild.

You have a warm demeanor, and many people find you to be inviting.
You are sympathetic and kind. You have a soft spot in your heart for everyone.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatflavorsmoothieareyouquiz/">

What Flavor Smoothie Are You?

You Are Dreads

You are accepting, peaceful, and connected with nature. You've reached a state of bliss.
Your idea of style is being completely natural and comfortable. You aren't trying to impress anyone.

At your best, you are simple and content. You don't need much in this world to be happy.
At your worst, you are a little irresponsible. You are on "island time"!

http://www.blogthings.com/whathairstyleareyouquiz/">

What Hairstyle Are You?

Your Birthday's Wisdom is Thought

You believe a mind is a terrible thing to waste, and you try to exercise your brain as much as possible.
You are intrigued by almost everything, and you are curious about the world around you.

You want to travel to foreign lands, read lots of books, and master many subjects.
You love to go on all sorts of adventures, especially the kind that don't require you to leave your room.

What's" Your Birthday's Wisdom?

You Need Friends to Be Happy

You are a friendly, social person. You seek out connections and relationships.
Being close to others is very important to you, and you don't like discord.

You feel great when you're cooperating and working with others. You enjoy belonging to a group.
Nothing makes you feel worse that feeling alone or alienated. You want to be liked by those around you.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoyouneedtobehappyquiz/">

What Do You Need to Be Happy?

" HonToni Gomenasai, Aidasiwa Dun have Words to Put Today haha "

My Recent-z Updates

2009-05-19T23:38:00.000-07:00

It has been a week plus now...wow hella bz that week...

Ok here it goes...

Umm....I can remember that last I had a sleepy annesia on last monday if I am not wrong. Don't ask me what's that mean because I don't know myself...Just felt I was not myself in my body instead another "soul" controlling my body and Im not haunted by ghost okay! haha

Tuesday, I can't remember but I know it was busy that time...dunno haha

Wednesday, after school my white girls and I had Hobbicraft club doing clay painting to our vases/pots using special painting which are meant to paint the clay products...haha what the heck I am saying here?! Together with Rachael and others...fun as always with her around..... talking craps that kills the time haha!

After that, we went to the Latin Club to visit Kelly to see her practise her saucy dance moves haha and at the same time Yve,Ah Ting and I discussed about our event project...very intense especially seeing Yve vomitted her ideas to my face without stopping haha!

Thursday, before that, Ms Ema informed our class that there was a talk regarding on making a event proposal....thought that it would benefit us,the event students...

But we came,registered and gotten our doorgifts....we realized that the talk was about the company Fedex and their own marketing strategies stuff thing..which was a old topic to us. There was a young guy from Fedex, he's cute, I like! haha But sad thing I bet he's married by the look of his ring on the finger..

I dunno whether it's real or not....sad :( haha

Friday, Yve,Ah Ting and I went to the Singapore Flyer for our first time riding there.

It was scary at first but we overcomed the fear of height haha...WE SURVIVED HOORAY!

We walked around its shop and we bought postcards for momentos...cos the rest of the stuff in the shop are so very bloody damn expensive!

We then walked around the shops in Bugis Junction and new mall nearby...abit boring as it still quite brand new mall...we finally went home late as ever...cool.

Last Sunday, after 1 year plus of separation, I reunited with Dianah...my ex-bestie...I met her near her at the bus stop and went to the bugis junction for lunch....and then again to the new mall.

We talked alot about our school and personal problems and irritating bugger...I don't want to see him...very disgusting hearted one!

After that, I visited to Dianah's house for quite a long time to catch up some memories and stuff. Dianah really stuff me with food...till my stomach bloated haha....

Finally I kenal pinched my cheeks by her....very long time never had that...

Ok today, I have finally finished my attachment project and handed up to teacher....and relax already,hhee

That's all ya'll!

I know we both have nothing to say to each other right now. There's nothing we can be friends...Im sorry it was my fault to let my feelings out too fast...

Though now we are gone. I still remember that words and jokes you cheer me up early in the morning before the school starts....

Your eyes are filled with mysterious beautiful cold white shine.

That I will never see that but you...

I glad that I thanked you before we are officially off to our own separate lives.

I am very happy to meet and able to know who you really are...

" I miss the morning talks I had with you...you will be always the ray of light to me"

Junks...

2009-05-10T23:54:00.000-07:00

:: Yearning For You ::

We walk pass each other

A sudden silence...

When I wanna speak a word to you

But nothing comes out

Everytime you are around

Not like before we talk

And exclaimed over our heads

Of our sparkling light

In our everyday conversation

But now...

We are the rotten statues

Looking each other

Waiting for time to vanish us all

Being myself being over selfish

Of wanting you next to me

Like the first time moments

The confusion startled on me

When light from before...

Begin to shine still deep

In your mystical eyes

I ever lock my eyes on...

I know we are in three degree separation

Though we know deep inside

We try to make it close

Like before

I guess that I am out of bounds

No more of your personal voice

Near me...again..

I admit I still love you

I admit I need you

I admit I miss the times you are with me

I never stop this feeling from growing,never

"I want to grab your hand to forgive me and start over again,Im sorry..."

Maintained On Still Water...For Now...

2009-05-09T01:47:00.000-07:00

After a big BA-BING-BOOM, I realised that it is a very important to talk all the craps out of my chest to someone....if not, I will have a mental breakdown or mental irritation that I will not think properly.

I am not as resistant to major problems anymore cos my heart cannot take it especially I am as the one has been "beaten up" in deep emotionally a thousand times worst alone than being in jail...

Of course to hell if you dont know what I am talking about...you just don't get a freaking bloody picture...don't cha?

Yesterday, I went to school for Cambodia briefing and leaving my application to AOG briefing to astray...big time...I don't care anymore...

But worst has come, my parents won't let me go to the Cambodia trip due to swine flu dilemma going on though it has been reported to be fading in news...

I think and think like I was freaking bloody hella wanted to participate in Cambodia trip and help people there and get rare opportunity to experience there...

But...

*Dream Goes To Smoke*

Ok...I hope at least I ask Mrs Jean Yeo for events to assist or Ms Angie Lee (-_-) for attachment, hoping a better one,will be best if I am attached to fashion company or something like that....I better don't put my high hopes yet....

That will at least get me busy and get more experiences during June holidays....

Just now, I read thru my old momento from primary till recent now...that got me thinking ever since I read from my school journal where Mr Jalleh (my fav teacher of secondary 2 and I treat him like my big brother as he was v v nice person to talk to)

After each of my past entries which consists of my worries and problems, his advices will never fail to keep me going...I never know that his words were the "wake-ups calls" to myself waking up not being a sore brat...until now...

I really miss him hella lots and happy that he is happily married (I was worried when he would get married as he was single that time,haha)

I will use his advices...apply to my now...

I don't know how the coming monday will go...

But all I can know that I desperately wanna play badminton with jj,randy and my fav "brother" of mine,chunxian for a duel that I had made to them....PLEASE!!

Ok...umm...as yani quote: bye-bye to cambodia and AOG :(

Really hoping to find things to do something good for myself...

Till now I chao!

" He told me," Someone has to lose first in order to gain the determination to move on or get something"

Miserable

2009-05-07T00:42:00.000-07:00

Everyone, Im v f**king bloody miserable,haha *audience clap hands!*

I am so very pissed off right now...and I am showing my raw emotions and not hiding behind computer,k!

So much for a small f**king cooperation for one small questions just need to be answered that all resulted in all marvellous excuses which is a "music" to my precious ears...

Sigh, don't blame me when this gets not what you wanted...cos I f**king ask you all for opinions and freaking shits first ah!

Scold me ah...I am not scared anymore but a very thick skinned person in front of you ah!...shoot me hell if you want...cos I have NOTHING to hide....

Sheesh...this is almost like back to secondary school...but eh...give thoughts people!

Care yourself only is ur motto but nah ah not me!

I don't think I can just let go...cos I will bring you down with me...

You can just label me as the worst leader you can ever met...

I "had to" volunteer myself as one just to get the shit!

Not helping out of kind,k?!

I NOT F**KING BLOODY MAID CLEANING YOUR TRASH!!!,K!? READ MY LIPS, YOU BETTER OWN IT WHEN PROBLEMS COME...I WILL JUST SIT THERE AND SHAKE LEGS AND SAY "WHAT?"

Come on and be generous give your special comments...pretty freaking please!

Random Post

2009-05-02T04:28:00.000-07:00

You Want to Impress Strangers

You want strangers to think you're attractive. You want to be seen as gorgeous and sexy.

You want your friends and family members to think you're smart. You like been seen as insightful and wise.

You are at your most playful when you are around family and friends. You are more serious around people you don't know well.

You let strangers see parts of you right away, but you believe in keeping some things private.

You are open to becoming close to people, but it takes some time. You don't let just anyone in.

"http://www.blogthings.com/whodoyouwanttoimpressquiz/%22%3E

Who Do You Want to Impress?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is low.
You see love as a gift that you should give to many.
It's hard for you to imagine being with one person at at time...
Let alone one person for the rest of your life!

Experience Level:

Your experience level is medium.
You probably have had a couple significant loves.
And you may have even had your heart broken.
But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people.

Dominance:

Your dominance is medium.
You tend to be the one with more power.
You aren't a total control freak in relationships..
But of course you don't mind getting you way!

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is low.
This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships.
It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life.
In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together.

http://www.blogthings.com/thefivevariablelovetest/%22%3E

The Five Variable Love Test

Your Birthday's Wisdom is Thought

"http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourbirthdayswisdomquiz/">

What's" Your Birthday's Wisdom?

You Belong in the Baby Boomer Generation

You fit in best with people born between 1943 and 1960.
You are optimistic, rebellious, and even a little self centered.
You still believe that you will change the world.
You detest authority and rules. Deep down, you're a non conformist.

"http://www.blogthings.com/whatgenerationdoyoubelonginquiz/%22%3E

What Generation Do You Belong In?

You Are Monday

Like this day of the week, you are ruled by the moon.
More than anything, you are flexible.

You are moody and impressionable. You are easily influenced by the world around you.
And while you can be temperamental, you eventually adjust.

While Mondays tend to be the hardest day for people, you don't mind getting back to regular life.
You're the one waking up early and making the coffee while everyone else complains.

"http://www.blogthings.com/whatdayoftheweekareyouquiz/%22%3E

What Day of the Week Are You?

" These things open up my mind"

Poem About Bump Up Incident

2009-05-01T11:33:00.000-07:00

"That Time You Caught Red Handed 2 Times"

I walked into the shopping mall

As I early saw you with your friends

Having bread and tea

I kept thinking that you and I

Are over and over again...

Till...

In a shop that attracts me

With the person related to me...

I saw you yet I excused myself away

But you called my name

Teasing me as the usual main course

Unknowst to you

The person related to me is...

My mother...

You stumbled and froze

My mother stamped you pleaded "GULITY"

The first time I saw you heed for freed

I never knew first why...

As I realized what was really going on

My mother told me...

I sizzled with shock and pity on you...

=================================

That leads to another milestone...

In my mind was you

Thinking of how unfortunate that

You were caught by my mum

Cos you tease me deep

I thought of you too deep

That...

You were exactly beside me!

Looking at me...

Trying to steady yourself

As my mother was there

Infront of us...

I smiled,covering myself quietly

We looked at each other....

"It is such a long time,ah?"

Bye...you say...

Though it was very interesting incident...

As to you,very unfortunate...

I am glad that you were standing beside me...

" Don't worry...just be steady..."

Something Special

2009-04-30T00:30:00.000-07:00

Ok, yesterday was the day my precious brother of mine turning 17 this year...haha...

Chill out with Yve and Lay Tin while they bought snacks and also met my mum at J8.

We had lunch at KFC and here it starts to have our own "amazing race" of finding pressie for my bro.

Bought with my mum his favourite treasure PC DVD Quantum of Solace Game Version and I chose Levi's black tee that my mum has been so called "persevered" to buy it specially for my brother.

School is too short nowadays...just a blink of the eye like 1 second is the end of the school day...So to me like I have a lot of time to spend going out...

" Haha, Poor U...I am glad you were beside me ...all for a while..."

Over And Out

2009-04-27T06:29:00.000-07:00

Ever since, that I have now changed into a final happy,out of crazy box minded and keep smiling person; this part of this chapter of my life has given me an open door to the challenges and other after effects/impacts on me that make me what I really am.

Knowingly, some of the things that really wiped my inner smile away that I wanna cry cos i failed to keep it going especially a deed of helping other person.

But if this is what has gotten of me and the best cure of that situation...

I somehow feel sad,amissed and struggling to make it through and annoyed this feeling.

I wanna focus of what is important matters in front of me....just keep going straight....

I wanna clear everything and start over...But I may fear that I will repeat the mistakes again as I am more emotional than being practical.

How...

" It's cold when you are not here with me, it is colder when we look at each other with no words coming out of our mouths"

I don't know you anymore...

2009-04-25T18:35:00.000-07:00

I have to do my attachement presentation by the next two weeks...sigh...at least I have suffcient time to do. Just 10 slides in summarized form...yeah...

Not sure, which level or class I am going to present...anything will do...

Im free again...sadly..I wish that I shouldn't had that crush love feeling and be there as a friend...I guess my heart couldn't take it...

I lost it...all left is memories,the beginning and the ending...the money and 3 songs I requested from him...

It is better for me to get out of his picture that I may bring more chaotic unnecessary drama.

I am moving on with main motive in my mind: school with opportunities...keep on winning and don't look back...

My heart feel better now but..

Im sorry...

Argh...my lips is so dried including my face plus my irritating eczema (skin condition)...

School is killing me...with this 2 lessons to face it everyday..there's no drive...

Feeling the dejavu everytime...

So much left after school...eating oily food at Burger King At Yew Tee Point cos of the coupons haha...

"I like to flirt with those who teases and lighten up my life"

Boreds~

2009-04-24T16:56:00.000-07:00

Your Spicy Score: Mild

You don't feel like you need to spice things up. You're happy to play things cool.
You'll go along with fun, but you don't feel like you have to be the life of the party.

While people appreciate your cool vibe, as long as you're laid back and not uptight.
There's a chance you're taking yourself too seriously. Relax a little!

http://blogthings.com/howspicyareyouquiz/">How Spicy Are You?

What Your Handbag Says About You

You are concerned with how you appear. Projecting your high status is important to you.

You tend to be relaxed throughout the day. You are naturally at peace.

You are a low maintenance person. You can adapt to a variety of situations.

You are a high maintenance person. You feel lost outside of your normal environment.

You are a very creative person. Your life tends to be a whirlwind, but you always seem to pull it together.

You are an outgoing and expressive person. You always speak your mind, and you're very approachable.

You are a very unique and special person. There's no one else who is anything like you.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourhandbagsayaboutyouquiz/">What Does Your Handbag Say About You?

Your Fashion Style is Girly

You dress to look beautiful and show off what you've got
Dresses, skirts, heels... whatever it takes to turn heads
You love feeling like a girl in any setting
Even your workout clothes are cute and feminine!

http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindoffashionablewomanareyouquiz/">What Kind of Fashionable Woman Are You?

Your Gemstone Says You Love Yourself

You are simply joyful. You find it easy to have peace of mind.
You tend to think positive thoughts. It's easy to control where your mind goes.
You have great mental powers and self discipline.
You are able to dream big. You definitely aren't afraid of failure.

http://www.blogthings.com/thegemstonetest/">The Gemstone Test

You Should Date An Australian!

You're a down to earth, outdoorsy kind of girl
And you need a guy who can keep up with your adventures
A rugged Australian guy is just your style
Better start learning how to surf!

http://www.blogthings.com/whichforeignguyshouldyoudatequiz/">Which Foreign Guy Should You Date?

You Are A Chocolate Ice Cream Girl

Dramatic. Powerful. Flirty.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatflavoricecreamgirlareyouquiz/">What Flavor Ice Cream Girl Are You?

" My Annesia Of You "

Pictures

2009-04-23T18:17:00.000-07:00

Alot of pictures for you to see (Image Seminar February 2009) I know it's late haha!

" Done "

Just Words

2009-04-18T02:37:00.000-07:00

Ok Im back...

School starts, everything is great.

Get Cool with my White Girls (Me,Laytin and Yve the Snow White haha)

The timetable is absolutely short of lessons of Design Application and Integrated Event Planning since my class is holding 2 subjects excluding LPD lesson which are meant for O level students.

It is because the rest of us had taken lesson like PIE..from nitec years..yeah.

Timetable again...short...too short that have a lot of time for a early knockoff to go outing with friends...

It is like short period to study and long time to play a fool haha.

Only except Monday which end at 5.

I was like what plans I am going to made after school since the rest of school week knock off early...if not ah, I will feel unsatisfied.

What had happened during the absense:

Last Monday, Yve,Laytin and I went to Plaza Singapura since we all suddenly been released once we gotten our transcript and timetable for just less than 5 mins?!~

WHAT THE SHIT!

But on the good part, I had fun with Yve and Ah Ting...walking a stroll thru the shopping mall and play a huge fool of ourselves especially at the Spotlight which was obviously have something good to joke about with the products as our prop and decorations,haha!

Umm...then last Thursday, we girls of Hobbicraft club had to setup our booth to recruit new members of the April Intake at the ITE Machpherson...

Personally, as there are us too many to handle a small booth. Most of the minutes, I,Laytin and Yve went around...talking to our friends,Rachel and Kelly including our classmates,Mas,Jac C and one of my runner,Randy Goh....go go go! haha..

It was bloody fun which was unexpected...yeah talking,having jokes and took pictures....

When I looked at my pictures of myself, I smiled more than I usually should which is a great thing to me...finally...

As I predicted Dianah was there with a chinese guy, as I first thought that she schooled there...I annoyed her but she found me in the end as obviously of my intention at that place...

She changed,yes...

She apologized...yeah I know it's over

She now schooled at ITE Tampines as she entered Higher Nitec for her studies...good for her ah...

So she came here to get her new CCA...ohh...oooh..oohh...ohh...(That's my reaction)

Actually, I had nothing much to say to her...I purposely asked her what she would be doing after that...She would go home...

I asked her to better go home without saying more words further...

Cos there is nothing much can be done to my gone case friendship with her...and want her to be independent in her life....

End it....

Great Im free to breathe and just gonna be alert for goodness sake...

Ok lah...end here..muaks bye bye...

"Sleep Well, My Little Romeo"

Another Stage of Life

2009-04-12T14:19:00.000-07:00

Let's you can say: Finally this girl is updating for quite long already.

Let me say: Yeah I am updating finally,Happy? >.<"

Ok,finally my almost 3 week attachement is hella over.

I personally not that proud to work there cos the workplace was tensely boring and very quiet.

It was so quiet that you can hear a drip of water splashing out...the people working there can be catergorized into 2 groups:

1.Boring and Tense

2.Likes to insult and critized

The worst experience that I ever met....

But at the same time, I learnt a handful experience which I gained mostly from making quotations,meeting people and promoting in sales event.

I never like to talk to people cos they are in their ages which I can be labelled as the outcast.

Nah, I can hate it very much but I at least learn and improve myself abit including having myself to expose to the tough reality,knowing the types of people in the hell I can meet.

Overall I can never be suprised this happens to me when I begin to work in that attachment...

I will move on and dare take more attachment to learn and grow...

Guys, just don't make me remember that attachment...please don't...

Important much of all, my holiday period is well used...Im happy for that...

I believe I can make a difference,somewhere......

I stop here...muaks and bye bye!

"I wanna burn their world!"

A Sad Envy

2009-04-04T21:15:00.000-07:00

I feel so useless sometimes when comes to defend myself and others with me. Whenever other people critises, I keep quiet to annoy and treat it like a useless fight from them. But soon when time passes, it will haunt me very emotionally.

And I can't take it and blame myself to be so timid and useless..hopeless.

I try so hard to be the stronger self but it will never last that long. I will tend to be weak in my heart like a wounded victim in the dark.

I am so scared to continue to face the world. Especially this time when I have to handle my fears alone..alone,Im so scared to ask for help from others that they may hurt me even further.

I have no one to trust and I don't understand this part of this modern life.

What I see people get hurt tends to have those who victimized them even further...amazingly treated like a joke or nothing...

Those who wants respect and being good tends to destroy everything even the people around them will backstab when good people are not up to their liking...

I don't understand...

I ask for help but everybody wants to mind their own business than mine...I DON'T UNDERSTAND!

WHAT'S WRONG WITH THIS WORLD!!!

I want to give up so badly and run away to the place where nobody knows me.

Why!?

Why is it so hard to have a nice starting and ending..?

I tried to be tough to save myself....

I don't understand....

DOES IT KILLS YOU TO SHOW ME RESPECT!

Sigh...

I wanna cry but I can't...

Cos I can't feel anything..it's scary right?

Seriously cannot feel anything....Im numb....

"I really envy those who can make it thru in this harsh world"

When The Day I Will Be Saved...

2009-03-26T21:39:00.000-07:00

Day and Night

Hit on the road or the water

I will see someone hold on to someone

Specially to her/him.

Group of loyal friends

Ganging together

Like loyal Mafia

Willing to rule the world together

Despites their differences

Yet so able to collide

Like brothers and sisters

Able to understand and give care

At each turn of event

I asked myself

"If this is their time...."

"When this will be mine?"

"Will I be too late live that time?"

It hurts and feel my heart with jealousy

Green with envy

All over and over again

Being hung by a thread

Getting to break at anytime

Like the flame of the candle

Is about to be blown away

I want to be saved by someone for once

I want to lay my head on someone's shoulder for once

I want to cry in front of someone for once

I want to be loved for who I really from someone for once

I want to hear the beautiful words like "I'm glad that you exist" for once

I want to be protected with someone for once

I want that someone to know that it will be ok for a long time for once

I want to be someone I can truly out my life I can easily trust for once...

Why is it so hard for me to have one?

Am I the expected target?

Will I have to be alone forever?

Please....help...me....

Just for goodness sake...listen to my heart breaking while I am acting strong to save myself from falling...

Im tired to be like this for so long...

Too long to be strong...Im fragile...going to break anytime soon...

"Hold and Tug Me Tight Not To Let Me Go,Please..."

Gone Off For Now

2009-03-22T10:32:00.000-07:00

Ok, tomorrow is the start of my 3 week attachment. I am very nervous and afraid that I will make silly mistakes on the way...heee!

So with that, this blog of mine will once again covered with dust for these 3 weeks expect the weekends but still may be occupied with something ahead.

Bought all the great office outfits and just need to gear up my office weapons,haha...

During absense of this blog, last Wednesday, I had outing to Sentosa and Vivocity with Ah Ting and Yvette. It was fun and almost realxing...cos I was feeling it but not to the max,boohoo...cos I was late because of the bus..bloody hell.

But besides that point, everything went, we went to the sandy beach with our skins "burned" alive under the sweet kiss sunshine.Then we went under shelter to play UNO game...camwhoring ourselves with silly poses and phrases.

Finally, to top it off, we went to the rooftop to get our feet wet and walk around it. Yve and I talked alot of things just to get things out of our chests...it felt good especially our feets. It was like stepping stones.

Yesterday,my family and I went to the Sun Plaza with the main objective: to buy office clothes... very important. It was the best shopping spree I ever had...trying like hella lot of clothes and making strong comments. Having our meal at Canvana makes me sleepy and very the satisfied before shopping, so be cautious,haha!

Last Tuesday, I watched the greatest movie of all, V for Vendetta...it was very emotional about taking revenge that V wanted to do after all the pain and suffering he has been thru. And then came, Evey who was intially safe by V during distress by the 3 bad guys trying to get fresh with her.Soon, they both fell in love but unfortunately in the end V died due to heavy shooting by the group of organisation. V said his last words to Evey in her arms,"I fell in love with you,Evey which I never bring myself to do it...You have given me the most beautiful thing you ever give me...*slience*.

When I watched that last part, I was so sad about the ending...Undying extraordinary love,ah?

Ever since then, I am officially in love with the movie and personalized my laptop with V for Vendetta pictures,AAAHHH! DUN DIE! REVIVE YOURSELF! HAHA!

Ok, I better stop here...cya then..Pictures and Videos will be soon uploaded when I have a time and energy to do it,k? :)

"You Cut My Hair...You Torture Me,YOU TORTURE ME,Why....?"

Agree with Yani's Mind-Gym Post

2009-03-14T04:29:00.000-07:00

Please to welcome comments for this post only,thanks

I have found this very interesting originally from Yani's Blog:

It's better to be alone, than in the wrong company.

Tell me who your best friends are, and I will tell you.

If you run with wolves, you will learn how to howl. But, if you associate with eagles, you will learn how to soar to great heights.

A mirror reflects a man's face, but what he is really like is shown by the kind of friends he chooses.

The simple but true fact of life is that you become like those with whom you closely associate; for the good and the bad. The less you associate with some people, the more your life will improve.

An important attribute in successful people is their impatience with negative thinking and negative acting people. As you grow, your associates will change. Some of your friends will not want you to go on. They will want you to stay where they are. Friends that don't help you climb will want you to crawl. Your friends will stretch your vision or choke your dream. Those that don't increase you will eventually decrease you.

Consider this;

never receive counsel from unproductive people.

Never discuss your problems with someone incapable of contributing to the solution, because those who never succeed themselves are always first to tell you how.

Not everyone has a right to speak into your life.

You are certain to get the worst of the bargain when you exchange ideas with the wrong person.

Don't follow anyone who is not going anywhere.

With some people you spend an evening; with others you invest it.

Wise is the person who fortifies his life with the right friendships.

" With this, do you agree? Do you really believe in the meaning of Friends Forever?"

My Final Round and GO~

2009-03-13T12:04:00.000-07:00

*Breathe Hard*

I would like to announce that the exams are finally over and able to stretch my feet and importanntly my mind in ease...

DING DING DING~!

FINAL ROUND~!

About the last paper which Event Planning and Logistics:

My Review: I really thought that the paper would be quite challenging but hell no..it was not easy and not hard which I could manage to answer most of the questions to save some good marks. Pretty smooth as I went along. I was just over-pressured myself,that's all,hehe!

My Results: To be continued...(Sorry) ;P

Goodbye to school and hello holidays!

1 month to be exact:

But I know that I will be on the attachment with some German Company at Jurong Side...It will be for 3 weeks and start at 23 March to 11 April...I am very bloody nervous though I worked in the office before...with my mum,haha! But this time, I am working alone there! ARGH!

Yeah, I have 1 week plus to my own....plan to hang out and stuff...hope so...

I gonna use all my time for something good for my benefits....

I end here..

Peace and Signning Off! >.<

PS: (To My Ex-Bestie) Happy Birthday Dianah...

"Does this type of black look good on me?"

Exam Unlimited and A Broken Record

2009-03-11T09:02:00.000-07:00

Ok after the two exams, my class and I have "survived" its obstacle of tragedy.

Hoping we all will pass...both good and bad...and I am not joking and really praying for it...

Ok...

DING DING DING~!

First Round: Business Communication

My review: To be honest, it turned out as what I have learned were all there almost barely. It was like I was almost gonna be in pain but I "escaped" from the pain.It turned out to be manageable like I pray for every time...not easy but not hard...Importantly,I have managed to finish in time and double check the paper...and yea3, it was cool.

My Result: I have K.O Biz Com...

DING DING DING~!

Second Round: The Very the Alot of Chapters (11) Principles of Marketing!

My Review: Though there were many chapters to cover, I tried to push myself too far because it will definitely lost my memory but to relax in and out. The paper for MCQ was great easy but as normal Section B and C were pretty tough....However I managed to answer the questions. It was more intense than the previous paper.Feeling that I could have the chance to breakdown totally...but again I calmed myself...Finished the paper with cramps in my head....no joke....

My Result: Once again, it was K.O by me...hehe

For now, I have to revise Events Planning and Logistics for the final round....like 8 chapters,hoping to make it in time....

Oh yeah, Yve and I have chatted on the phone about alot of cool topics last night which lasted for 2 hours!

2 STRAIGHT HOURS....HAHA

THE WORLD RECORD SO CALLED HAHA!

But really we talked alot of important stuff in the future and what to do list thing...

We will try to plan it out first...cos now I dun think we can start the engine yet...dun worry, hope it will come true!

"Who Will Make It Rim Supreme?"

Exam DeJaVu

2009-03-08T21:36:00.000-07:00

Exam Commencing Tomorrow...FISH! Ahh!

Go Away Pleaseeeeeeeeee!

Don't ever call me the 4 pointer cos I am the slacker at certain extent!

I am telling the truth here!

Who the hell want to study 24/7...OMG!

I can never reach that standard....

Ok lah I end here see, see you at the other side of life (not dead)

I was walking along the pathway

You were ahead of me

Thinking I would fall on the floor first

You were winning yet unsatisfied

Your soul is going nowhere

Your feet brought out alot of curiousity

That lead you saddness,pain and deeply unawared

I never see you that way before

Not before, not ever a second

My dear...you can fall now

I am going to catch you when you do

We will be in the same line of life....

Just hoping that I will help you without any doubt concern....

Cos I really want to guide you as much as I can give...

"Perished Thoughts"

Why?

2009-03-05T00:49:00.000-08:00

Today, you told me I will be the number one...

I felt very touched inside but never let them out...

I just wanna act tough...

You kept me thinking...

"Why are still talking to me after all sudden things between us before?"

"Weren't you uncomfortable talking and looking at me?"

"Why you still forgiving after all this drama I cause you?"

............................

In my mind...........

You are the greatest friend I ever met in my entire life....and thanks for being my friend too...

Thank you....

And stop calling me "OLD"!

Hahaha nah kidding...

"Study Smart Not Hard Everyone! JIAYOU for all exams ahead! haha! XD"

No Time to Update! BASKET EXAMS!

2009-03-02T05:31:00.000-08:00

Hoo Hay Haa~ ?_?

Nevermind the introduction I have made...

I am just deeply stressed and if I really made it...I will lay on my knees and praised the blue sky like mad...

No joke...don't play play cos it is less than a week away to exam time...

Man~thanks to the last minute bombarded projects and something else,sigh...everything kenal wrong timing....

I just gonna be strong and presevere...one step at a time....

It is just like balancing on the wire line,waiting for myself to fall and bomb blasted myself to other side of the world....

Seeing my classmates stressed and covered themselves with papers and books, stressed and scared me out...

I don't know...I'm scared and that I will admit through...

For these few absent days of my blog, there are alot of things happened...willl be updating as soon as the exams are officially over...

I honestly am very jealous...of the people I see getting " socially famous " and that's what I most envied than a big craving for a box of chocolates...

Sigh....ok lah I better end it now or this will never end,haha!

*_*

" I saw a big cat is double the size than my cat...hiyo....train my cat to NS and can kaki with me to fight during the catfights! hooo hahaha"

The War Commences

2009-02-24T06:42:00.000-08:00

Right now, my mind is on the final exams which are hell less than 2 weeks....

This is what I have to worry about right now...

Making notes is easy

But

Remembering everything is another issue...

Damn...

Let all things shoot over me till this fire cease to ashes...

I don't mind the current situation...

Because there's more than having a good dream....making everything perfect...

I realized that I have my own stuborn habits....I forgot about it...

Stress is killing me yet at least cease one out is the presentation tomorrow...

I may just lose control or just flow the words out....hope so...

Finish once and for all...

"For Better Or Worse May Come Hold A Light That Showing The Life In Me"

You are so "ugly"

2009-02-20T10:00:00.000-08:00

I don't really understand why such bloody people don't understand what is at stake...if you don't want to do it, tell me lah! Then I can just "SPARE YOUR LIFE!"

Doing a small part is like taking your life is it?

LIAR! SORRY TO MY A** MORE BETTER~!

Another one girl same school as me was in the some makeup workshop thing...that stupid chinese "so called clever" girl....we don't know each other...

Yes I looked chinese,I know for a thousand times...that girl mocking me....I am Muslim,BODOH!

Then I found that girl kept quiet....*pissed off*

OPEN YOUR MIND BIG BIG, THINK BEFORE YOU SAY...SOME PEOPLE GOT SOME BAD MENTALITY MANNERS!

I GUESS I WAS WRONG FOR LOOKING YOU UP AS THE MATURE KNOW IT ALL LADY... BUT YOU ARE THE ONE RUIN YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION! DIMWIT!

"BASKET!"

Just Kiss Me Hard and Take Me Away

2009-02-17T05:30:00.000-08:00

I am feeling very miserable, a big M....and I wanna scream so bad that everyone can find it very stupid...

Im so fed-up with studying...I don't care anymore...I don't feel the bloody drive to move on...

No one can really hold a candle onto me when I am in the tight situation,facing the obstacles... alone.

My body is made of hanging zombie with no soul in it....

I don't know why...

I am very bloody stress...facing the things like "Ooops I'm sorry''...

That can only just make me feel better for a sec...

I confessed honestly that I am in a deep green envy of someone has someone on his/her side...able to have someone to seriously talk to....and not talking to the wall once in a while...

Recently, I realised that whatever how much hurt their words may be, I seriously don't feel anything like it doesn't hurt at all..

OMG! My heart is dead!

Nonono,dun worry I am not dead...it is just I cannot feel the impact that's all.

I somehow find it very amazing...

Ok, tomorrow I have 3 hour makeup workshop...oh gosh I love it very much and at point of that, there will be motivational talk so that means that there's no lesson for me including the 5 classmates from my class..YES!

This Thursday, I will be interviewed by one teacher regarding on Vietnam Trip...ah..bloody nervous....wish me luck if you really wan...just don't fake it.

I changed the song because since I am in this mood to have light in my life right now...I think this song really suits me...

ENJOY~

"That's what happen when there's no excitement in our lives like a family without children around"

Kisses and Hugs

2009-02-14T05:54:00.000-08:00

I have been thinking about something that bothers me a few times occasionally...love or lust?

Or my heart getting crazily imaginally despo for love and it is not me who asks for it?

Haha,nevermind...just gonna control my emotions for a long while.

I know maybe V-day is so contagious that I am affected by it!

Haha, get a jab,singletons! Save yourself from serious goosebumps and heart sinks! :p

Argh, too many schoolwork to handle make me wanna throw them out of my window and see the papers "fly" away in the air...

I stressed enough to my limits and feeling the verge of breaking down...sometimes...

Me and Yve had made a intro song that goes like this...

Show me your backside fa la la la la la la la

Let the gas out for us to smell~ la la la la la la...

Haha~~!

How is it,everyone?

Very unique intro,huh?

The main idea all thanks to Yve's friend...haha.....

Tag my board for comments and craps but no vulgar insults please!

Now I feel I lost the best thing and need to add a new chapter in my life,again...not going to run and run away over and over again....

Kiss me goodnight,please....

"S & W lesson is for Sit and Wait Lesson and NOT for exercising haha!"

Happy Valentine's Day! (Im not sad,Blueks!)

2009-02-13T03:16:00.000-08:00

To all Couples and those in love and even singing in love: May Love be with you Always! Don't fight and just care for each other as always be like the first time!

Umm, I am single and I don't mind about this...*go and hide one corner and act emo* HAHA! No lah, jkjk!;)

Ok lah that's all I wanna update!

PS: My laughter is getting contagious! SOS! >.<" BEWARE OF BLACK FRIDAY!

"Everybody has somebody, for me I have my homework to date with,haha!"

The Glimpse of Seeking Freedom

2009-02-11T05:22:00.000-08:00

Today, my comrades and I had to show our presentation regarding on Singapore Grand Prix that we were assigned as ushers last September...as I can say again, it was great especially with the quite-"cool" security guards and policeman...I miss them like shit! Haha! Wow, Im despo already, k whatever...

Ok continuing before I sidetrack my story the presentation went smoothly,thank goodness except for small misfits and abit rocky...I was awared enough to make it continue to the end smoothly.Also thanks for members for making the presentation a big success,thank you!

I was pretty nervous but I let it slide and just relax of being myself when doing presentation...

Ok good great, it's over!

One down, a trillon more to go!

Oh gosh, projects and other such assignments will never,ever end! FISH!

Sigh, my life is getting better bit by bit now,Thank God!

I am really myself, not hiding but showing all of myself...

To be honest, it has been 18 years...18 long cold years...I might not know that when I was young then realized it when I gotten older.

I had been thru thick and thin all by myself...

I think back, I was surprised that I made it throught all that and don't know how that I did it...

You may think I am very the exaggaerating, but basket you! I don't care..because you are not in my shoes all the time!

I don't know, I can say one word right now: speechless...

Ok 2 weeks from now is the deadline of Marketing plan AND presentation! Also less a month to final exams.

EEE! Stressy!

I recently applied a position as a usher in image grooming semiar for all women at the Mariott Hotel in Orchard area...

Well, just give it a try!

Wanting to my final year a very interesting one...studying all the way is plainly disgusting!

Im physically and emotionally including mentally tired....wish to sleep like whatever time will be...

I have moved on and I can't believed it at all...

Im happy finally..finally...

"I love my boys, I love my girls eventhough they really know how to kick my butt!"

Far Too Many

2009-02-06T17:11:00.000-08:00

K, now so many things I need to do...but so little time when having a lot of "bombs" suddenly falls on me...bullshit!

Somemore for worst, final exam is a month away...why have projects and other second important stuff blocked my way!?

Argh! Sigh, I want to participate in IAP Attachment,Vietnam/Chiangrai trip and hoping to do as many as I can this year...

Now I feel that right now is dead boring, sad and filled with regrets...I really want to make it so perfect but why I did get myself to ruin it.....I just don't understand....

Why ya still talking to me...don't make me be a troublemaker in your life,please.....

I just don't to make any more spolit in this time....

I just can't speak that way like before....go away....just hate me please!

"I am just too crazy for you to handle, boy are you jealous that I am prettier than you?"

My Little Book

2009-02-05T04:50:00.000-08:00

Ok now, what?

A notebook by one my friend for my past birthday, I was like thinking very hard of what I should use it for. Finally, an idea knocked my mind which is to use it as a memoto book. I have started to ask my class to have their honour to write their name,signature and their wishes.

I know it is pretty stupid to have it too early and usually for this should be done the half of the final year or near the end of the year.

But I was really afraid that I might forget all about that till it is too late to do it. It is because once my classmates graduated...it is over and done...

I have almost all of my classmates written in my little book. It feels nice to see what they have written...wishes and talking crap...maybe...haha

I did it right now...I lovin' it to the core

Thanks IET for writting my book, you are always the best!

Sad part now is that my 3 boys who have passed their O Level, finally able to enrol to the same polytechnic,Nanyang...

Basket them!

Why they have to leave? I gonna miss them, their teasing and alot of crazy stuff...

You somehow hurt me,ya know that?

But I know this is what you really want to achieve...

I support you still all the way...all the way...

You guys dun forget us when you are in poly,ah!

I smack your face if you do!

Seriously, it hurts me alot to see you guys go...

Promise me that you will soar...

Not soar in PSP and computer games,will ya haha!

I WILL MISS YOU,DAMMIT!

YOU HEAR ME!

" You'll be sorry if you see me cry"

Random Stuff

2009-02-01T04:51:00.000-08:00

Now is the beginning of February... I will admit that this is a month of Love Season...hehe!

So ok, now I have no words to blog in it but the pictures to spread you breathless...hope so,haha!

This is what happen when I got carried away of buying too many keychains w/o looking,haha!

Being a president of the class may be superior yet a burden like carrying extras for my ex class...I really glad that is over now...Thank God!

My Cooked Clay Artworks, it was fun and I want to try it again...

The Foreign Money Exchange (Ice-Cream Sticks as for size reference)

Rupiah coin (way lighter than Singapore coin)

China Money Certficate

Arab Money Note

My Unfinished Childhood, that's why I am still childish till now! Haha

This is the event I met a horrible person I ever met

Still continue to use it till it's gone
2 years ago I really want to use it but I guess this one has been abandoned by me,hor hor!

Where I found people smoking in the tight space school...

Should I use it or not?

A Coupon with no deadline stated...I guess I can use it for a hundred years over haha!

You and Me Must Created Trust

It has been 4 years my ex tuition teacher left it in my study room...and never retrieve it since then, poor eraser... :(

F1 Race Event Certificate Envelope

F1 Race Event Certificate

Singgapore GP Pte Ltd Logo

How much more unique can Singapore can be when we get so stressed up with the economic?

Our Famous Telecommunication
My Singapore Biennale Staff Card (Front)My Singapore Biennale Staff Card (Back)

National Arts Council Logo
Singapore Biennale Certificate

"I am sorry that no words is coming out of my mind doing this updating, well pictures can surely save my life, don't they?"

My CNY Stuff and past before

2009-01-26T16:22:00.000-08:00

Chinese New Year thought I don't celebrate it but some people are nice enough to give us some of their Chinese Inpsiration...haha!

The Best Part!

Sheng Siong CNY Pouch,Nice Kan?

A Basket of Small Oranges

Including Pineapple Tarts and Kuih Mak Mor as its bodyguards,haha~!
Knock,Knock!

Who's There?
Ox Is In The House Y'all !!

My Ox Under The Lime Light!

I also made a mini video about it...Please Watch It And Enjoy!

Her First Try in Batik Made By Maznah

My Very Bad Emotional 20th Birthday...

Random Pic of my school...Say Hi to the Camera,Fishes!
Another Random Pic of my school...
The Unrevealed

My Pressies! Wee~! >.<

Mark's Pressie (Before)

I got a PURPLE Cute Monkey~! Aww,very sweet of him and I am not dramatic at this point!

Almost can see what is the present...

Photo Album From Yvette the Love Goddess,Ah! Haha...Give me some motivation to take more photos in the future!

Pressie from Ah Ting! So Cute the Wrapping!

Ta Da! I got a notebook,this one is very special! Gotta use it for a big memo!

What! That's more! A Bday Card!

The Message is Short and Sweet and bought me to my old memories!

Huda,Maz,Jac P and Hui Lian bought this one for me...4-in-1....POWER! HAHA!

OMG! It is Bloody Beautiful...very elegant like cost a billion bucks!

Another Best part during Birthdays...

Ice- Cream Cake From Swensens! GLORIOUS!

Another Look before this was going to be eaten by my family and I! Muahaha!

The Candles say their last prayers before being blown and so the cake to be eaten...HAHA!

Ready...Get Set...GO! HEY! I should blow the flames out first, not you PURPLE MONKEY! HAHA!

My Piece

May The Man Get The Last Piece of Remaining Cake! CHARGE!

One for You, One For Me...See I am kind to my pet,hookay!

Kids, Don't Play with Fire,Dammit! XD!

" Phew~! I am so done with this blogging process! "

Happy Chinese New Year And Beyond!

2009-01-25T10:48:00.000-08:00

And...

HAPPY 19TH BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YVETTE~!

WISH HER, WILL YA?

HAHA!

More to come soon....

"ARGH! I hate the Internet Connection downturn!"

Walking Bare Footed Stable On The Path Of Fire Stones

2009-01-23T16:44:00.000-08:00

These few days I realized that I should just get easy going myself and not trying so hard to please myself.

It is because life may not go easy on my way either applies to everybody else.

Just make jokes and laugh it off the negativity.

School wise,ok but the lessons are dry on certain extent. I can endure abit and getting sleepy these days though I had a good few sleep...

I don't why...

Got role-play from BZC to deal with including the Marketing Plan from POM to end it hopefully asap.

Chinese New Year is coming on its way and so my good friend's birthday,Yvette.

She is going 19 years old,this coming Sunday....

I gave her a present of a handphone "bed"...yeah...hope she likes it... :")

Now...I just wanna rest till my fatique is gone...

" I admit that I miss those times the happy and crazy ones that still brings me to tears in the end"

Drag Myself Up To The Stairs

2009-01-19T17:02:00.000-08:00

Not Good Not Bad Either...

That's I will describe my life right now...

Yes, I feel safe with my people now...

But eventually, I will be lonely and boring at major point...

Feeling frustrated and overtense...

Thinking the whole world is abandoning me...

Back to square 1...very tired of being to try make myself up and up constantly...

Thank God, I am given an option which is to study for the exams and beyond...

I know, tasteless and boring and having an increase of chance to become a nerd soon >.<"

Ok, but yeah only way to get away from loneliness and all those excessive emotions which Yve has thought me before...

Yve, you are my hero at one point,thanks :)

Ok now...alot of work to do...and yeah stress mode as usual...

I laugh away like nobody's business

Someone will think I am mad at this point

But who cares, they don't understand a single bits of my biscuts....

Being mad is being a jump of joy at certain extent...

Oh well...I can't help it cos it is naturally in my blood...

Guys, tell me the meaning of "Forever"?

Does it rings your head that any human lives is forever?

Or the things or whatever you are holding right now is forever there?

I honestly don't believe that word anymore....cos of things happened 2-3 years ago...

Sigh, bloody fed up with the same old being emotional bucket holder which I was that time...

I was one stupid girl of thinking helping people will be awarding to me..

Well, I am not that now...

Im changed...

(Just Pray For Me That I Will Not Screw It Up The Wall)

"Bad People Learn More Than Good People, What Do You Think?"

A Cold Emotional Ride

2009-01-17T15:25:00.000-08:00

On my 20th birthday, I felt like myself being stuck and not moving at all...don't fell happy about it...turning really older...I just couldn't help it even though they told me to be fine with it.

They don't know how does it feel to be in a total sudden change just like that?

So I was all day being moody and sulking but thanks for the birthday wishes and pressies... especially my class sang a birthday song to me...feeling kinda awkward but wanna know my appreciation because they tried...

They asked me to say my speech...unexpected...I just said whatever came from my mind with my hand scratching my head...feeling stepped on...cold

I was there, feeling that my "time" was finally over...feeling "sick" and restless...don't know what to do but to just stand very emotional all the way for 2 days...

No mood to study but wanna to go out to feel better alone....

I cried at night, feeling frustrated because I am left hanging and holding on to nothing...

Some people I asked for suggestion or advice...that one gave me an answer which meaning to ending a life...I can say that person is the most idoitic person I ever met...

Why not I slap that person's face with a metalic bat..stupid...!

I was like"IDOIT! I AM IN A BAD EMOTIONAL STATE AND MY BIRTHDAY WAS YESTERDAY AND NOW U TELLING ME THIS....IDOIT...READ YOUR QURAN,WILL YOU!"

I don't care anymore...and don't even bother giving drama scenes anymore...I will just go straight,straight away...to get to the finish line...no matter what...even it hurts me...

I have been through all that way before..sigh

Not easy living a life, huh?

Anyway, I have passed my POM CA Exam which is 38/50 reaching my expected core of 40 but it is ok as I passed it, it is enough for me...

CLT! Champion seh...second is Ah Chiang,sio...hiya..feeling down *hides in the corner with black face*

Nevermind... :)

I will be loading some pics soon as I can grab time into my hands... XD!

"Freaking the lonely freak, SCREW YOU!"

Not A Girl Not Yet A Woman

2009-01-14T20:00:00.000-08:00

Soon I will be become 20 soon...so fast....I was ended 19 like yesterday.

Begun 19, I told myself that I should do a lot of things that I wanna do like taking part in events or something I never done before.

I did it!

Sigh, I joined the F1 Race event, Singapore Biennale,School Poetry Competition, Quite of few singing contests that I auditioned myself in eventhough I failed straight away,haha...step me cold..but nevermind, I will be trying again this year..hope have again...this time I am willing to give my all. I am so desperately need it to get in...

Fingers cross!

Ok,POM CA exam was something I could handle steadily that's all I can say. I don't wan people to think that I am showing off my brains,haha!

Yeah, thanks to opportunities given, I met alot of different type of people: Good,Bad,Ugly, Beautiful,Perv and others that caught me by surprise,haha XD!

The best part is talking to people especially the cute hot guys,haha...just friends or colleages only hookay! haha

I learned alot from them and the places I worked in last year.

It was a great experience, that I should have started it more earlier...but nevermind lah...what for force myself if I am not ready for anything to butter my path?

Well, I already ready...and just GO!

A year older is a year of living on...I just dun wanna grow up anymore!

"Thank God, I make it alive to this very day cos You have saved me from drowning 9 years ago"

The Changes with a Boom!

2009-01-12T19:52:00.000-08:00

Ok, I got something to say out that makes my hands itch so bad that I wanna "puke" it out to make myself better.

No no it is not something bad...seriously

I have seen that the people I have met have changed tremedously and I never believed at all but I do now.

It hurts but it has to happen sooner or later, why not later and kill the sooner,haha! XD

I know nothing last forever and never will be forever because we are bound to change so matter how fast we will run from it.

I am scared of being older and hestitated to change but I will have to.

By that, I may feel better..being good and matured...

I really don't want to be an old hag with no life to move on....just wanna grow old gracefully...

You know...with my past years of my pure youth as teenager girl....

I will miss...the cuteness if me....the friends I first made...the emotions I first felt....the obstacles I first fought it off...the times I shockly said vulgarites(it was true then) I stopped just for my sake of my well-being as I grow older...and all the sweet sweet things I could never ask for more.

I don't know...

Sigh, my heart just keep on beating up and down like a very bad insanity in love

It is stupid, so I better control it...get myself busy with important stuff

Bad thing I have to bother with is the Marketing CA is coming Wednesday....one day before my 20th birthday...it was so close...

Thank God, my birthday is not affected by the exam...

It will be heart breaking if that happen...

I know it is very overreacting but...to me 20 is the huge mark that I made it through alive with the years I have hugely bravely went through mostly alone...

It was the huge dark periods of years I went through...pain,cry and betrayal....

Still now, I never believed that I went it through it all...it scares me...

"I see the night like day and the wind blows me hard as it wanna kiss me on my lips"

This is Who I am

2009-01-10T11:45:00.000-08:00

I love to laugh like hell

Tomboy with a girlish dreams

Daredevil with a heart of heavy gold

Go-Getter that never gonna give up despites critism

Emotionless with a empty heart

Glamorous with blings

That you never forget and admire my "unusual" memories

"Im sorry that I am a nutcracker who keep breaking hearts without mercy"

School begans and so the bloody stress

2009-01-09T10:00:00.000-08:00

Ok it has been a week from the time I last bloggin' in, here it goes...

School-wise is going quite smoothly except some lessons are wasting my time now and then still. Sigh, darn...I hate that.

Glad to meet my 2nd family,IET! Some of them got a new hair-dos...I really like Wani's...so nice and lively really suits her well especially the highlights!

My group,as usual talk crap and more crap...

Only this year, I not gonna stir up old times again...I don't wanna get hurt cos I have been hurt again and again.

I should rather laugh out than to cry out.

Just celebrate life,people!

Projects and homeworks are officially done,THANK GOD!

If I hold them any longer, I can go crrraaazzzy~!

FREAKING DAMN STRESS! Cos got P.O.M CA Exam this coming week! FISH!

STUDY AND NO SLACKING~x100000000000000000!

DARN IT!

First time, I wore eyeliner to school, whoa daring move of me...dun give a freaking damn about the lookers asking for sarcatism.

But then, after I talked with some of my classmates; with all starts with me wearing eyeliner...

They were trying to help me out...I really didn't know they can be so concern about whatever it is personally. I was really touched by what they were saying to me yesterday.

So touched I wanna cry sio!

I am very bloody happy to have IET as my classmates also my 2nd Family.

I have no need to be afraid to letting things out of me.

"Lack of communication,huh?"

I will try to be talkative...thanks...haha....thank you very much,truly appreciated :)

Finally and finally I got some people to guide me through...

"IET,I Love Them, I Tease Them,I Hug Them, I Know Them...I never forget you guys even my days are ended"

Things from the past (2005-2008)

2009-01-01T18:13:00.000-08:00

Received from my mum's colleage from the trip from Disneyland (2008)

One of my mum's Bday present (2008)
From my ex-classmate gave me for my early 18th Birthday...it was a sweet surprise from her...:) (11 January 2007)

Purple Handphone Accessory Inside...

Covered in this wrapping

Nice Ribbon,it was last minute pasking or was seconds minute packing,haha!

Christmas present from one of my mum's colleages (2007)

What's inside...Cute right?!

Message from her...*_*..I wanna cry..bloo hoo hoo,haha!

Aluminium Cap from Chiangmai,Thailand (September 2005)

Paper Hearts,Hobbicraft club (2007) Sentosa Shootout for Skyride (13 December 2008)

Massage Stick (Early 2008) Saai Mini Umbrella from Chiangmai,Thailand (September 2005)

Mum's Bday Present from her friend

That's more...

From left: My Ex-bestie gave me for my 18th Bday,This one I can't remember,maybe it was out of nowhere haha and finally my AM secondary teacher gave me this....)

One of my mum's relative's/friend's wedding....

One of my classmates' spectacles (Class Party) (23 December 2008)

Seashell (Class Party) (23 December 2008)

Back View (F1 Usher Uniform) (26-28 September 2008)

Front View (F1 Usher Uniform) (26-28 September 2008)

To Uncle John(2005): I miss you and hope you getting fine with your life and ur family...and thanks alot for the guidance throughout our trip, :)

To Shafirin(2007): Thought I knew you loved me from afar...Im sorry I didn't talk to you or something because of my reasonable doubts...Thanks for loving me and hoping you will find a better girl than me,muaks!

To one guy I worked with at F1 event 2008 (Darn I forgot his name,WHY! Hahaha: Nice working with you and it was my greatest pleasure to meet and able to talk to you...miss miss you!

To my senior at F1 event 2008: Haha,Uncle2 Miss your jokes,haha! TC!

To the guys I have met in my life: You will be my Big Bros in forever life and after,DUDE! HAHA!

To the girls I have met in my life: We do catfights or whatsoever, but being with you is a great blessing in disguise,THANKS!

To the enemies I have met: I wish I can make a big and deep revenge on you but I can't...only God knows who are the ones should be swallowed in the darkness,haha!

"I miss you and I love you till there's no more last of me"

A Goodbye Kiss to 2008 and A Welcome Hug for 2009

2008-12-31T00:00:00.000-08:00

Sigh, 5 more days to school reopening...I really hope that it will be a good school term and more good times to come...

"My Resolution are basically just good,healthy and happy life"

What I Got For Christmas and Purple Fanatik! (More Random Pictures,Sentosa tickets and cards)

2008-12-30T16:41:00.000-08:00

Getting Emo Here...

What I got for Christmas?

Thanks to my mum and bro for the necklaces, thanks dad for the sports shoes =)

I want to show you all how much I love purple >.<"

From bag to handphone accessory...

Sentosa Brochures

Sentosa Cards for Bus Rides

E-zone cards (No more using coins to play games)

Sentosa cards for monotrail rides

Packaged Tickets for Luge and Skyrides

Random Jeans Pattern Picture

Two Happy Friends :)

"It is so much easier to put pictures than to type it all out"

Just Another Bunch of Photos...XD

2008-12-29T13:00:00.000-08:00

My class was having a (so called) class party, here are the pictures and the videos,ENJOY~!

"It was the best and this was when someone got my heart beating....oops :X"